My dad yelled at me the whole day, I couldn't handle the stress. I don't remember a lot of it, because I just kept going numb so I didn't have to listen.

My niece called me fat, which is a really sensitive subject for me lately due to my increase in weight from the medications. Everyone was doing the ab circle and I went to get on and before I could get there she goes "She probably won't be able to do it, because she's too fat". And even though I did just fine with the exercise she went around telling everybody I couldn't do it because I was too fat. I was crushed I wanted to die inside. I have a history of an eating disorder and it crushed me. I crumbled on the inside, but maintained my composure.

Now all I want to do is punish myself for being so disgusting. I don't deserve to be here.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by LydiaB

My dad yelled at me the whole day, I couldn't handle the stress. I don't remember a lot of it, because I just kept going numb so I didn't have to listen.

My niece called me fat, which is a really sensitive subject for me lately due to my increase in weight from the medications. Everyone was doing the ab circle and I went to get on and before I could get there she goes "She probably won't be able to do it, because she's too fat". And even though I did just fine with the exercise she went around telling everybody I couldn't do it because I was too fat. I was crushed I wanted to die inside. I have a history of an eating disorder and it crushed me. I crumbled on the inside, but maintained my composure.

Now all I want to do is punish myself for being so disgusting. I don't deserve to be here.

You are not disgusting and your niece was an insensitive brat. I only talk to some of my family members because they are family. If they weren't I wouldn't have anything to do with them. "You can pick your friends but you cant pick your family". Give yourself a hug. It's not you it's them.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I'm so sorry your christmas was so terrible! It sounds like some of your family aren't the most pleasant to be around... To say the least... Please do remember that your neice, if she was at all raised correctly she would not have said those things. And although she did say them, please remember that they came from an angry part of her that wanted to see you upset, not a fact that she was citing.

A lot of people, especially immature people, will call others by names such as those. Most of the time, as teachers tell you in school, they really are saying those things because they have found something in YOU that intimidates them and they want to basically bring you down to their level. Don't let her.

You've gone a long way. Just worry about yourself, not immature people who just want to hurt others. Keep the focus on yourself and your healing, proving to them that what they say can't effect you really will be the best payback you could dish out, for yourself and for them. Teach them that what they say is exactly that, just what they say. It holds no truth and it holds no factual evidence and for that what they say has no power.