New Developements

Hi All,
Im not sure if the feelings I have are normal sort of say than not to have about something. You see, T and I came to know someone new, and although she did not reveal to me(my T) all of what was said, I feel for the first time, like something was accomplised. So much happened in that visit, and I guess, the question I have, Is, 'Is it normal to be happy about knowing you seem to be more crazy, to have "others"?'. I mean, it , to me says more and more, after all the testing, she still seems to be right, and the test conclude. I gues Im still in the whol denial, iesle thing, maybe thats all it is. Please, and suggestions, welcome!!

-Jodi(and I guess, for starters, "The Gang")

everyone feels different about their memory pieces. some people are happy because they now have what they need to fix their problems and other survivors say they felt totally down about it because they felt like they were getting worse not better with each piece of memory.

Personally I went through both. first I hated finding out there were more and flat out told my therapist I was crazy I had to be totally insane to be like this. and she would come back with no your not crazy you only feel that way. Panic city when I found out she had confirmed 8 triggers and memory pieces I was still getting used to the two a past therapist had told me were there and that therapist had been telling me the truth years ago. and then being sarcastic I asked so how many do you know about? She named off two that I knew about out loud, whispered one more and continued counting to herself and said "8 but we are not going to worry about number"

8!!!@#$% Im crazy, I'm @@@###@@# nuts!!!!

LOL but as time went on I realized numbers and how many really dont matter. What does matter is that with remembering each piece of memory and matching it with the triggers and putting coping tools to match those came more control of my behaviors, thoughts and life.

Now Im happy about it. ... Not right in the heat of it cause boy everything goes pell mell for abit during the working with triggers and remembering but once past that stage and working on the coping skills and seeing and feeling the calm and more stableness that follows is quite addicting and very much welcome.