[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

So much for my break from pc... It's addictive I tell you! I'm trying not to obsess like I typically do but I always have so many questions so here I am...

Has anyone else kind of experienced "radio head" type feeling? Confusing I'm sure but like... My boyfriend and I were sitting out on a small quiet road at about 11pm watching a meteor shower. We were in the car since it was cold and it was completely quiet outside. We weren't in the safest feeling environment with it being so deserted and late but it's a small town, pretty safe here. Well without the car on, no one speaking I spent the time watching the sky with my thoughts bouncing around the place. I didn't realize until the second time my boyfriend repeated himself that he was talking. We were both in complete silence but I didn't hear him at all the first time and the second time couldn't hear but a faint muffled sound from him. That's when I realized something was really loud inside my head. By the third time he had to repeat himself I realized this noise but couldn't place what it was and still can't.

It's as if I have (and I just posted this somewhere else) 150 radio stations all tuned into my head. It typically takes a few seconds to quiet the noise to be able to hear again what is going on, this is happening more and more lately... I assumed it's related to dissociation since I was dx'd DID but I guess it could be something else, thus the reason I'm asking...

Anyone else experience an unexplainable really loud noise that makes you unable to hear other things?

[hermeand]

The meteor shower sounds awesome - glad you could see that.

I haven't had that happen that I remember, but am sure others will chime in here soon.

Yes I do... it makes focusing hard. But that's a good description... "radio stations". But yes I get to these points that literally drive me up the wall where I cannot focus on anything. I feel like walls are closing in around me and I'm hearing 15 "voices" at once. I think that this results in panic attacks usually for me, because it's so overwhelming. I can see people's lips moving trying to calm me down, but it's useless at this point.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

Thank you for both of the replies.

And yes the meteor shower was amazing, I love watching the starts, they are so beautiful and represent something to me that they don't to others. There's no pain out there with the stars, they don't know hatred, they don't know abuse or anger or pain or anything of the sort. They sit there looking beautiful and I think they are there just for us to adore. Science beliefs or not, they were put there for us to have something beautiful in this world when nothing else glows, so it was wonderful as always

Lydia it is just like you said, multiple voices all at once and it makes focusing on anything at all impossible. I haven't been able to seperate the noise into voices yet but it's as if there are multiple radio talk show people tuned in at the same time. The static from the radio drowns out any possibility of understanding the talking that is taking place, but I can tell that it's something or someone talking and multiple ones at that. As far as the fading part goes, it's been getting worse for me and I can see that it leads to this and after the noise the fading returns to kind of fade me back into reality. I can't tell you how many times I have gone without even noticing the noise until the fade... It's strange that I don't notice it until something makes me notice. I don't know if this is the same but often I also have trouble speaking and understanding...

I hear people talking but their words make no sense. It's kind of like they are speaking a foreign language and I try and try to understand but the words have no meaning and no concept to me whatsoever. And now I'm beginning to speak the same way... I try to talk but my words come out wrong. In my head I am saying them correctly but for instance... Trying to say the sentance "I ate grapes and hot dogs for lunch" would end up sounding to other people like "I grate brapes and grot nogs for grench" or something of that sort... Perhaps there is a neurological problem... Or perhaps it could be a result from DID, perhaps the noise and this are connected, or not I don't know. I don't really notice any noise or any fading when my words are mixed only when others are or when I can't hear at all. Oh and I hate hate hate it when I'm looking at someone and they are talking to me and I can't even hear them at all because it's so loud in my head, but you can't explain it to them because they just don't understand it.

So confusing... I really wish my work would stop running me around with this insurance issue and let me get on medical so I can see a doc regularly!!! Sheesh!

I'm glad the noise is not something I am going through alone, at least I know I'm not crazy Thank you again for your reply

We have that once in a while. It usually happens during the night and wakes us up. SOOOO LOUD and annoying!! Its like I am hearing a loud radio and voices talking so loud that it hurts, but its all inside because the room is usually completely silent. My T says she's heard other ppl with DID talk about that too.

[mlyn]

yes, experienced that also. I like your description of it. I always thought it is like going into huge autitorium that was full of ppl and you can hear all sorts of voices but nothing can be understood just noisy.

[sarahplainandshort]

Yes, I have this. The radio analogy is something I've thought of before because I always have a song going on, too! I don't usually hear more than one "station" at a time, though--it's more like someone flipping through different frequencies, so I hear different voices and conversations and screaming and so forth in the background, behind whatever else I'm thinking about at the moment. I always thought this was normal until I described it to my T one day.