[woundedhearts]

<font color="purple">I want to share more about us and stuff that is going on with us. It is a really stressful time for us and felt that we should write about it.

First off I am a 36 year old female. I have DID with to many alters to count or name. We will all be going by this name woundedhearts. We feel more safe by using it instead of our own names. We are currently in therapy and see our therapist every other week. Which can be very stressful. We also go to a DID support group.

Our most difficult thing for us right now is our roommate. She is very irrational as well as becoming violent. She throws things and is very much out of control. We are just hoping that the months go by fast for the lease to end so that we can move out. We are on SSI, but wanting to find work with Web Page Designs. That is our dream. Well one of our dreams. *Smiles* We really don't know what to do with our roommate. We have tried discussing things with her as well as trying to find out how to break the lease. It would cost to much money and we couldn't afford it.

On top of everything, we are having memories as well as body memories that can and doesn't mean that it does go with the other memories that aren't related to the body memories. We try to be supportive and help people as much as we can. I think as well as other parts think that we are leaving ourselves out in that picture. We give more of ourselves to other people and then find ourselves lost within the muck of it all. Like our roommate for one instant. We are so lonely and don't have very many friends. None that we see on a regular basis if you want to say that. We are homebound and don't do anything except go to therapy, dr's, and to the store. Only when need to go. Also the support group. We feel so much like a hermit and feel that we are isolating ourselves more. We are so lonely, longing for someone to love us, care about us, hug us, etc. On the other hand we are so afraid of other people. Fear of being hurt. We don't have any family members. We cut them totally out of our live. Ok I think that I have rambled enough in here. Hopefully the post will go through. hehe, I think I will copy this before sending in case it don't go through. </font>

[woundedhearts]

<font color="purple"> Weeeeeeeee it worked hehe</font>

[Evangelista]

Gentle Hugs. It is hard living with someone who is out of control, and disrespects you. You should be named Bravehearts too.

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((woundedhearts))))))))) (if ok)

Understand the fear of living with someone with the propensity to be violent. I hope your lease does not have a long time yet to go and that you are able to get to a safe place soon.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

(((((((((Woundedhearts)))))))))

You ARE Bravehearts You're doing what you need to do to help yourself! No, the journey is not easy - I know, I'm struggling myself right now. But, we're surviving, just like WE (everyone in this forum and in others) have done all our lives, despite what other people have done. It's hard to remind ourselves of that when we feel bad, but we all are survivors. And we're here to help you get through this, along with your T, Pdoc, support group, and your system.
Safe hugs - Anne

[Mahali]

Hi Woundedhearts I am sorry you are so lonely. Is there any way to attend more support groups?

Hope you can find a safe living place after your lease is up. That would be so hard.

[January]

((((((((((( Woundedhearts )))))))))))))))

It is so hard to live in fear. It sounds like you are doing a wonderful job and I agree you should call yourselves Bravehearts, too. I hope your lease is up very soon.

You have us now, so you have friends.

Welcome!!!!!

Hugs,

Jan

[woundedhearts]

<font color="purple"> Thanks everyone for their support. It is still pretty stressful. The lease isn't up for another 5 months. July 31st to be exact. I am going to post again in a different thread about something that happened tonight as well as other things. </font>