[SongBirdandDaisy]

I am someplace between awake and asleep and cannot ground myself. I feel my Dad's presence everywhere and he's scaring me. I know he's thousands of miles away, but he's like an evil spirit that won't leave. I'm scared and confused and locked within my own personal hell.

[dottie]

(((((((((((((((Hugz))))))))))))))

[SongBirdandDaisy]

I don't know how to help myself

[SongBirdandDaisy]

I saw my T tonight and we did some nurturing work. He is a wonderful therapist. But I'm all confused. I switched. I get really confused when I switch. I feel so lost.

[dottie]

Hi. Try setting a goal for yourself: you will not dwell on things that cannot hurt you. You ARE safe where you are.Pm me anytime you'ld like to talk!I know about fear.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

I have to leave now. I want to run away. I won't. But I want to. I want this all to go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[greenfairy]

anne i'm so sorry for what youre going through. i've been going through the same thing for weeks. this is whats worked for me. i sit on the edge of my bed or the edge of a chair and hold a pillow very tight and keep my eyes open and remind myself of who i am and where i am and that he is not there. i have olfactory hallucinations and sometimes i go crazy cleaning and that doesnt help. someone here told me about grounding techniques and they do work you just have to give it a chance. i am here if you need me.
wish i could take your pain away. hang in there.

Anne,

I find this list very helpful.

I hope you too will find some comfort.

Petunia

Grounding Techniques

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((anne and all))))))))))))))))))))

I so know what you're going through. I know you feel isolated and afraid. Know that you're not alone in the fears, ok?

Keep doing alot of "self-talk" right now and hopefully it will help to bring things back around for you. That's about all I can do in times like this...that and reach out for caring hearts.

we care,

kd

anne,

everyone has already given the advice you need the most, I just wanted to add my ((((anne and everyone)))))

[Evangelista]

B Gentle with your self.....hope u r feeling better soon..I find that smells work for us..have lemons and oranges now on my desk since this happened recently at work..plus everyone here is so supportive..b safe inside out...((((IAMANNE)))) Gentle hugs if U need them

[hillbunnyb]

Hope you're feeling a little better today. Hang in there.

[pegasus]

iamanne,

Remind yourself-

In the PRESENT I am safe

In the HERE AND NOW, I am an adult and I would not allow anyone to hurt my child-self.

It is over and I am OK.

Comfort your child-self to let her know she is SAFE.
I use distractions so that I don't get "stuck" in the past.(do something that you like doing to take your mind off it.)

I know it is a dreadful feeling. My thoughts are with you.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Thank you everyone for your support. I do need a tremendous amount of hugs right now. I'm feeling better but still find myself dazed and confused. It's hard to keep track of my thoughts and to concentrate. I'm also starting down that path of beating myself up. And I felt soooo good last week. This does stink.

I try to ground myself, all of your suggestions have been great because when I feel like this, I can't think straight and go into my bag of tricks of self-help. The article on grounding techniques I printed out so I would have something tangible to hold.

My little girl feels like I abandoned and rejected her because of yesterdays session. I didn't I don't think - maybe I did - I don't know. I guess I'm still confused. So sorry that I feel like this. I feel like a burden

[SongBirdandDaisy]

soooooo, now I'm grounded, kind of, but now I'm very sad. I feel like I've been rejected and am no good and who cares if I'm here or there or anywhere!??



I don't understand life. I don't understand anything and I am frustrated. Why do I keep getting triggered? Just when I think I'm feeling better - actually, the last few days have been tough. So what's new, it's always tough - I either heal or go through life taking what's been handed to me with no control, no feeling blah blah blah blah what's the use . . . . . .

[pegasus]

iamanne,

I'm feeling pretty rough too at the moment, so I hope I make sense.

The FEELING of being sad and the FEELING of being rejected are probably from the PAST too.

So you have grounded yourself quite well, feel safer but still have feelings coming through.

I think it is part of the recovery process, that we keep going through these things.

Give yourself a pat on the back because it's hard working having to keep grounding all the time.

My T reasures me that it won't be like that forever.

Sending you a hug>>>>>>>

(((((((((((((( iamanne )))))))))))))))

[Twisted_Soul]

iamanne; I know dear one. It gets so warped in our heads.
All we want is freedom and all we get is trapped.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

(((Peguses))(((TwistedSoul)))(((Hillbunnyb))))(((Evangelista)))(((Dottie)))(((KD)))(((Rainbowzz))

Thank you for your support!

Right now, this is the only thing keeping me going, knowing there are people who understand, a place where I don't necessarily have to explain myself. I can just say

Bad day Sorry, I know one day it will get better, right now, it just hurts. Sorry I'm so down. Sorry I need support right now. Sorry for being a pain

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((anne))))))))))) I'm sorry you are struggling. I hope you feel better soon.

[pegasus]

iamanne,

Please don't be sorry about it. We are here for each other.

It's not YOU that needs to be sorry is it?

I'm with you, hang in there!

(((((((((((((( iamanne ))))))))))))))))))))

[SongBirdandDaisy]

((((((((((wanttoheal))))))))))(((((((((((((pegusus))))))))))

Thank you both soooo much!.......I do feel a little better today.........and it's people like all of you who help get me through the rough spots...........

My family was never and still isn't here for me.........but I have this new family.......all of you

Thank you all soooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anne