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Apr 26, 2012, 02:36 PM
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May trigger, be safe.
I am worried. I am not a runner. I hate running because I feel like I can breathe during. Last night, I went out to the track to walk/jog with my friend. I figured I would run until I couldn't take it anymore. The first time I took off, I ran maybe ten feet, and I could feel that my ankles were weak. I decided I wasn't going to run any more, that I would walk and let her run ahead. Next thing I know, I'm struggling to walk, my ankles are throbbing and Alicia, my friend, tells me I ran every run interval with her. Today I can barely walk, and I don't feel safe carrying my son for fear of my ankles giving out and me falling. This is worse than Alex cutting me. Could it be another way of Alex trying to hurt me? Or is there a freakish exercise buff in my head making me do it? I do not know all of my alters. I just wanted to get this out. I am so new at actually accepting I dissociate and have alters, and sometimes I still deny it. I am just trying to learn more about my mind and why it's like this... Thanks, Cas
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GypsyRosalie(including: Cas(core), Nina, Alex, Rosalie, Shanna, Molly, Gigi, Squeek, Ki, Layney, Emberlynn, Raj, and unidentified others.) DX: Rapid-cycling Bipolar Type II with Psychosis General Anxiety Disorder Panic Disorder PTSD Obsessive tendencies (possibly OCD, possibly a symptom of something else, yet to be determined) Undiagnosed: Dissociative Identity Disorder or Schizophrenia (something causing alters) RX: Buspar Geodon |
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Apr 27, 2012, 02:41 PM
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Oh Cas, I am so sorry. I hope you are keeping your feet elevated as much as you can so they will heal up. I often have bruises on my legs and have no idea what I bumped into and sometimes I end up driving to some place I didn't want. Sometimes I have ended up trying to put the key in my neighbors lock to get in my house.
Last year I was on a plan to get fit and I went to the gym a couple of times and jogged on the treadmill. After about the fifth time, I realized that my feet were hurting quite a lot and remembered they had been hurting. After about 10 more minutes, I realized it was stupid to keep doing it so I got off and went home. I limped for a month, had pain in my heel when I drove for about 8 months and they are still painful enough to make me hobble at times. Please take good care of your feet now. **hugs** |
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Apr 29, 2012, 12:19 AM
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hm! sorry you are hurting. it will take some time to figure out all the insides. hopefully you will have someone on your side who can protect you from pain.
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Apr 29, 2012, 08:49 PM
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Apr 30, 2012, 08:20 PM
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I'm so sorry your hurting, may you put soft warm spots in your grounding box.
Take care.
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