Today I realized I can sense the prescence of another alter.. I guess thats the way to put it.

for the longest time I have had voices or thoughts that dont feel like mine running in my head that would either constantly recite facts about certain things, define words, or do math equations.

I sort of feel like they are attached to an alter, I dunno why I didnt realize it until now. I tried to talk to the alter and all I got was that she is very well spoken and sort of eloquent or classy, and she said her name was The Teacher.

I havent been able to communicate with her since though the voice is still running it is not nearly so disconcerting as it has been. Its sort of comforting now.

I dunno. Its weird. I wonder how I can encourage her?

((( Rainbowzz )))

Do you journal?

You could ask her to write something in it when she is comfortable.

Ive actually just started this.

So yes, thats a good idea!

Shes definetly older, I think somewhere in her thirties from what I feel.

Is this even possible if Im only 24?

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I guess anything is possible.

I am really satisified that she doesn't feel like an angry alter. In fact, though she won't stick around long ( as soon as I aknowledge her or try to call to her she dissapears or fades off) she seems very nice and helpful. Maybe she can help me alot once we learn to communicate better.

Its nice whne you meet a new alter that is nice like that, it really reinforces the idea that they were developed to help us out, and it also makes me feel not so alone

[cherybery]

Rainbow, for me my alters come out alot when I write. But maybe the best thing to do is let her come out on her own? I wish I had better advice but alot of this is new too me. She sounds very nice though! Welcome to her!
HUGS
Cher

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Rainbowzz,

That's great! I'm not sure how to "encourage" her since I'm still working on that myself. I think Petunia and Cher both have good points. Let her evolve on her own. T once told me that they were all created for a purpose, a way to protect us. And now that the system is changing a little, she needs to find her place within it. So, not ignoring her is great, talking to her is great, journaling, maybe watch a "sophisticated" movie and see what happens.

Just a thought,
Songbird

Some professionals say its possible and others say it isn't. Those that say it is say that while the person is in an abuse situation imagining their self out of the situation and imagining the abuse is happening to another person the names are from those that they have contact with in their lives at that time. Children can't imagine what they don't have contact with by way of their real life, TV, music, movies and so on. So the names always come from who is in their lives. you said the name is "The Teacher" so look at all the teachers in your life and match what you already know about that memory by way of what audio memories (voices) keep replaying. That will give you a starting point for figuring out this piece of memory. The "age" is probably the age of that teacher this abuse memory was stored as in the unconscious level. The content regardless of the age of the piece of memory is always the memory of the smell, taste, sight, sound touch (how the person was touched or what they touched) and or emotions the person felt during that situation. So to figure out the memory content - look at all the teachers in you life that were the age of the memory piece. That will give you the time frame of when this memory was created and possibly who your abuser was at that time.

thank you everyone.

myself, alot of what you wrote rang true for me.

she does seem very very familiar, and I did have several teachers around this time that would have fit this explanation - in fact there is one in particular that I just adored as she was so nice to me.

That makes alot of sense and Im going to try and incorporate that into the figuring out.

thank you everyone for your input. Its all a little new to me, well, sort of, Ive always experienced things related to DID and just didnt know what it was until diagnosed

its a weird, yet sometimes wonderful, sometimes scary road.

Glad to help. I had an older - well not older then I am now but older then the memory content and The name came from a teacher the age was that teachers age but the memory content was the abuse situation revolving around how I was forced to give up contact with her. Some of those memorys stored as that teachers name contained information that was the same as what she taught in school. Once I had the name and the class info I was able to know exactly when the abuse memories happened and I was able to locate that teacher in real life after losing contact with her 25 years ago. She was able to help me put the missing pieces together of what happened back then vs what my abusers told me. Once I remembered all this those memorys were stored just like a normal memory is and I no longer act out the memory content of "Darlene".