Overwhelmed

Got new memories, brother died, everyone wants different things. Kids don't understand brother's death want attention contantly, want to eat cookies and milk all the time, the dangerous one wants to harm us and keeps getting out of lockdown, teenager just wants to read or watch tv all day, I just want to sleep, cant find bossygirl who holds things together, supposed to work but i'm a mess.
. Almost feel like driving to er and checking myself in buy would freak my sister and bf out.

You are going through a very difficult time. It is important for you to take care of yourself and if that means going to the hospital than do that. It is better than doing something you will feel bad about later. Having a brother die is overwhelming for anyone and asking for help is ok. Take care.