Is this what I have?

I had shock treatments in 2006, I thought I was "dream walking", few examples, had a breast reduction, don't remember having any pain (husband said I was up and around) same with a full mouth extraction, my mother died in 2010, I know I was there with her, but I don't remember coming home, same at her viewing, service and reception, I remember a few, only know that there were alot of people there, again don't remember coming home...there are things I just don't remember in my past that I should, and can block things that I may see as traumatic, almost like a mechanism to protect me

Im sorry we cant tell you whether you have a mental disorder like whether you have DID or not...

What I can tell you is that the memory problems that come with having ECT (in your words "shock treatments") are vastly different than having the type of memory loss that comes with having DID...

example those that I know that have had ECT where it resulted in memory loss it was because the ECT treatments changed/remapped their brains inner workings like how their brains neurons and receptors fire off and receive information that are sent to the brain by way of the senses. to explain this think of construction on the roads we drive and ride vehicles on. sometimes due to damage, repairs and accidents the transportation department has to reroute traffic down other streets or make new streets/roads and avenues, and set up detour signs or close down unrepairable roads completely. thats how ECT works it causes the brain to jump start, change thinking patterns and puts old pathways out of business and makes new pathways.

sometimes that means with some people there is memories that are forgotten, erased, or not accessable any more and the brain stores new memories in different ways sometimes in ways that prevent access to those memories forever, with some people who have this time of residual reaction to having ECT they just have to learn to live with not having or having a vastly reduced accessible memories / having permanent loss of short term / long term memory process and learn to live in the moment of today instead of living in the past problems and traumatic memories.

DID memory loss is different, its one where the person with DID does not remember a special type of memories ***But*** those memories are not gone, not inaccessible.. the memories are held with in alternate personalities, and those memories come out a different times depending upon what the triggers are that will activate those memories. plus a DID persons memory problems start in childhood usually before the age of 5, when they have experienced a trauma that has caused them to split into alternate personalities.

As far as I know ECT does not cause a person to have alternate personalities, but can mimic some of the same dissociative symptoms of the other dissociative disorders.

my suggestion talk with your treatment providers. they will explain more in detail why you have memory problems after having ECT.

Of course, this forum is for folks with all sorts of dissociation disorders, not just DID, so it might be that you are experiencing some type of dissociation. Do you have a therapist that you can talk to about this?

We support you and are glad you are here.

It's hard to find a doctor who really knows what dissociative disorders are. I went through dozens of psychiatrists and all I ever received was "schizophrenia", "depression" "ptsd", etc, etc. So while I would like to say "talk it over with a psychiatrist", it hurts my heart to say that's probably not very possible. Unless you go to a psychiatrist who specializes in the diagnosis. They usually go in with the attitude to "rule out" the diagnosis, and 95% of the time, they do. Regular doctors just are not educated on the dynamics of DID, at least in my experience. My current psychiatrist and I have walked through learning about it together. I'm his first DID case ever and the man's been a psychiatrist for 20 years.