[DianasClan]

just cant take it anymore. the cuzin is trying to put me back in the hospital again i swear. i have not even been home longer then 5 days and i already want to self distruct in a major way. as a clan we are fighting tooth and nail to keep it together but it is so hard. she pushes every button we have and we have no way to hide or escape. we have no where to run. and now she has hit our biggest fear. she has threatend our home. she told diana that she has 30 days to get out then told dianas partner val, who is her cuzin by blood, that we have 6 months. we cant stay that long. i know we have no choice but we dont know how we can stay 30 days. she is messing with our mind knowing what it does to us. she is threating our sainity and living environment. we dont know what to do. we dont know where to go from here. right now we are doing our best to just exsist and make it from one second to the next. she accuses diana of doing things that diana did not do intentionally. she messes with dianas head every chance she gets. dianas partner is torn cuz she really wants to have her in her life. she is the last of val's family and we know that the cuzin is messed up in the head but she is now acting more like an abuser then anything else and we are stuck here trapped with no way out.

were sorry to dump this here but we have nobody. no friends no family no support other then val and we cant keep dumping on her that is not fair to her.

sorry
the clan

[DianasClan]

just want to implode. if we explode we may hurt someone outside in error. cant do that. the cuzin has been elevated above the father because he is in cali and she is here with a perpensity to become physical. she grabed diana today and lynn went bolistic.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by DianasClan

just want to implode. if we explode we may hurt someone outside in error. cant do that. the cuzin has been elevated above the father because he is in cali and she is here with a perpensity to become physical. she grabed diana today and lynn went bolistic.

It is good that you come to this site to let out your feelings but you should also be talking to you therapist. In order for you to make safe decisions you will need to calm yourself. Maybe even ground yourself with grounding techniques. The other day after session I had to use an ice pack when I got home because I was feeling unreal. The cold ice pack helped ground me. Try grounding yourself and contacting a therapist or someone else you can talk to. Once you are able to calm yourself you can decide what will work best for you. I hope you feel better.

[sugarlizard]

sorry you have to go through this...hope it will get better soon...my thoughts are with you!

[DianasClan]

cant sleep. voices yelling in my head. feear to great to handle. have no T or p-doc yet hope to get one on tues. but only if they will help us. the hospital is sending us to the office on tues. to see if they can help cuz we have no money. we have scripts but no money to fill them. the voices in my head scare me. the things they say. the images they play. omg i cant stop them.

Diana's partner does not want to discuss the situation with me or her. She quiet simply just wants Diana and Kathy to just get along. I have tried to explain to her that this simply will not happen. Diana is on the edge of being terrified by Kathy. Lynn refuses to cooperate and has made it crystal clear that if Kathy touches Diana again there will be dire consequences for it. I am working hard to find a way out of our living situation but with no savings or on hand funds and thousands of dollars in debt it is not easy in the least.

[Claritytoo]

I am glad to hear that you have an appointment on Tuesday, You will get help then. I am sure they will be able to help you with your scripts. If you get social security disability you should also get Medicaid. If you don't get social security disability you should get a social worker from the hospital to help you. This way you would have income and medical coverage. And the debt, forget about it, Chrysler went bankrupt and there doing just fine now. It is more important that you take care of yourself than taking care of some debt. Feel better.

[DianasClan]

We thank you for your support. We age with what you say. That gave me an idea. perhaps that is what we should do. Perhaps we should file for bankruptcy. That may be the only viable option. I will have to examine it. Thank you,
Denise