having some trouble with body memory

for the past two weeks I have been having some body memories. i have also have been having near panic attacks. I am trying to work through the fear of remembering but than I lose focus, change the subject, spend money I don't have to create a crisis. I am doing a lot of things so not to feel. I don't know how to get past this. I haven't told my t because I am concerned about how I might react. Two sessions back I became angry during session and left. It was at the end of session but I would have left if it was at the beginning if I felt like that earlier. Has anyone had a similar issue with trying to connect body pain to a memory?

Body memorys are not fun.....It may be a good idea and for safetys sake to talk with your T and maybe let T help with the body memory. We have done this before...One time we had two little ones who were having a body memory ( they were put through the same thing) and I wont go into detail but these two little girls could NOT get warm....they were freeezing ( you have to keep in mind that they are experiencing a trauma as if it were happening right then and there in the Ts office) so T put 3 blankets on them all the coats she could find and got them a cup of hot coco ( with marshmellows ...by request of the little ones) and then T helped a protector part wrap them up and hold them internally untill they went through the memory...and finaly warmed up and settled down..then T let them play with a soft teddy bear. So if you feel safe with your T try and work through body memorys with her/him......it cant hurt...right????? I understand all too well about body memories ....uugggg!