Weird reaction to caseworker

I don't know what the heck goes on with this new caseworker, but something weird is happening. With me, in response to her. She talks very slowly, and calmly and sounds like a mother talking to a baby on a constant basis and suddenly I just turn into this different person. I don't think I full out switch, because I know what happened afterward, but I have no control over how I respond to her.

This part is extremely sad, looks at the floor, talks so low you can barely hear her, and afterwards when I come to, I'm just like what was that? And she responds as if the world is over. So it appears as if I am the most depressed person this caseworker has probably ever seen. And I can't even tell her this is going on, because I have no control. I feel like I need to write a letter or something. It happens instantaneously upon hearing this woman's voice. And it's worrisome to me that I seriously have a part that is THAT sad. That's horrible. And then I feel dissociative and weird driving home and sleep five hours afterwards.

Has anything like this ever happened to anyone else?

before I was integrated there were many different things that would trigger me to switching. it took a lot of work on my treatment providers and my side to figure out what my triggers were and develop plans to minimize thos ewe could and my learn grounding techniques that would prevent some of the switching and those that could not be discovered or controled my treatment providers and I had an agreement, that I would let them know if for example I didnt didnt remember what went on during my time with the treatment provider (I didnt have much co consciousness so I couldnt tell them I knew I switched, what happened and all that)

so I kept a journal for when one second I was with my treatment providers and the next doing what ever and not knowing what had happened in between time. this enabled my treatment providers in working out the triggers if possible, / talk about the event when I happened to be an alter with them.

every time my treatment providers discovered a trigger we had a team meeting and talked about how to best take care of or avoid that trigger when I was with any of my treatment providers. it really helped a lot.

LydiaB, would it be helpful to print out what you have posted here and give it to your caseworker?

I'm sorry you are going through this.

Thanks for the advice you guys. I (host) had it printed and ready to give, but before I went in I did a little internal meeting asking the part to step back and give me control. I took in some grounding tools and stayed present the entire time. It was really hard, I did start to drift throughout the session, but I would catch myself and keep asking the part to step back.

I think I did a really good job. For once, I am really proud of myself. And I drove home remembering everything and I don't have a need to sleep five hours.

Awwww... ((((( LydiaB )))) You did an awesome job of communicating and staying present. Good for you!