[Orangina88]

My diagnoses are, Mixed dissociative disorder: amnesia, identityconfusion, derealiazation/deperso disorder.

While i was in treatment, my therapist insisted on that i shoud ask my alters if the had a name....cuz if they had names, its more likele DID, not mixed. I didnt ask them until i was out of the hospital months later, and sure enough, the had names. Not just "the angry one", but like "Ada". and so on.

Lately things gotten worse. two of my alters is very destructive.. and young. me and my boyfriend sat in the livingroom, and suddenly, (lets call her Ada) Ada comes out, starts being mean and breaks me glasses. and starts cutting MY skin.

My boyfriend think this has gotten worse the past time, and is convinced it is DID.... but i dont know... anyone who might have an idea?

My amnesia is very bad... lots of loss of time...and lots of stuff i dont remember...

Im on a waitinglist for treatment, so i didnt know where else to go.... this really breaks my heart... 3 alters by the way...

[Claritytoo]

I suspected I might be DID for about three years. I went to a therapist and did not tell them this because I wasn't sure and part of me didn't want to know. I was treated for anxiety. I saw another therapist and again didn't tell them what I suspected. This therapist wanted to treat me for anxiety and depression. We didn't agree on much so I stopped going. Soon after I sought out another therapist only this time I chose one who had experience with treating DID. I did not tell her what I thought but as the sessions went on it became apparent to me and eventually my therapist suggested that I might be DID or DDNOS. I am presently diagnosed as DID. At first accepting this was unnerving to me. Even though I suspected as much. But now, two years after the diagnosis, I am glade I know why I do what I do. It also let me know that I am not nuts, just struggling with trauma suffered when I was little. I know if I continue with therapy I will get to a place where I am comfortable with being me. That is really all I want. Don't get too focused on what they call it. Just know that knowing why you do what you do will give you hope.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Orangina88

My diagnoses are, Mixed dissociative disorder: amnesia, identityconfusion, derealiazation/deperso disorder.

While i was in treatment, my therapist insisted on that i shoud ask my alters if the had a name....cuz if they had names, its more likele DID, not mixed. I didnt ask them until i was out of the hospital months later, and sure enough, the had names. Not just "the angry one", but like "Ada". and so on.

Lately things gotten worse. two of my alters is very destructive.. and young. me and my boyfriend sat in the livingroom, and suddenly, (lets call her Ada) Ada comes out, starts being mean and breaks me glasses. and starts cutting MY skin.

My boyfriend think this has gotten worse the past time, and is convinced it is DID.... but i dont know... anyone who might have an idea?

My amnesia is very bad... lots of loss of time...and lots of stuff i dont remember...

Im on a waitinglist for treatment, so i didnt know where else to go.... this really breaks my heart... 3 alters by the way...

I am sorry that your location diagnosis DID by whether your alters have names or not, that must be so hard and limiting.

here where I live and work in new york usa there is no diagnostic criteria that says alters have to have names. many of my alters did not have names so when talking about these name less alters my therapist and I just referred to them as what ever their jobs, purposes, reasons for being were, their emotion that they contained or showed. maybe until they tell you their names their self you can refer to them in this way. it wont change your locations way of diagnosing the disorder but it might make things a bit easier and less confusing for you while you wait for their names to be told to you.

one thing about treatment for DID and other dissociative disorders is that the treatment is the same regardless of what dissociative disorder you have..talking with a therapist or other treatment provider about symptoms / problems and coming up with a treatment plan that addresses those symptoms and problems. so maybe you can work with your treatment providers focusing on symptoms/ problems instead of what the diagnosis is.

my suggestion for things that are seeming to get worse is contact your treatment providers because we cant tell you what to do for you, all we can tell you is what our own treatment providers have us do when things get worse of spiral out of control.. for violent situations and doing harm to myself or others my treatment provider sends me to the hospital. if the situations havent gone into actions and are just thoughts we work our crisis /safety plan.

maybe you and your treatment providers can set up a crisis/ safety plan for you and those with in for times like when you or your alters become violent and do harm to your self or others.

[Orangina88]

Thanks for all answers. We really appreciate.

I try not to be so focused what the diagnose is called... but i sure would help to know what it is... it is so hard right now...

Christina, 13, started cutting my skin. My boyfriend discovered this TODAY, and became very shocked.... I,as the adult, gets very sad...cus i really dont, I, really dont want to cut myself.... Michelle 8, broke my glasses... i got new contacts in mail today thank god..blind.. lol.

I also worries alot. I`m very afraid of that i might switch. It happens often, and im so tired of it.... and worried that my boyfriend gets tired too, but he says hes fine I just hope I`ll stay ME for a few days now..

[GirlOfManyFaces]

IS THERE a treatment for what you have? Does DID stand for something?

I too have bad amnesia and a few alters, plus insomnia... But I didn't know there was a treatment for it. I thought it was just something you had to live with.

I'm praying for you <3 stay well

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

IS THERE a treatment for what you have? Does DID stand for something?

I too have bad amnesia and a few alters, plus insomnia... But I didn't know there was a treatment for it. I thought it was just something you had to live with.

I'm praying for you <3 stay well

DID stands for Dissociative Identity Disorder...here in the United States DID is
(found at http://behavenet.com/dissociative-identity-disorder )

Diagnostic criteria for 300.14 Dissociative Identity Disorder

A. The presence of two or more distinct identities or personality states (each with its own relatively enduring pattern of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and self).

B. At least two of these identities or personality states recurrently take control of the person's behavior.

C. Inability to recall important personal information that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness.

D. The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance(e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during Alcohol Intoxication) or a general medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures). Note: In children, the symptoms are not attributable to imaginary playmates or other fantasy play.

this standard of diagnostics and definition of DID will be changing with the new DSM that comes out around may 2013 here in the USA.

Treatment for DID is the same as any other mental disorder....

therapy
medication for problems that sometimes accompany DID like PTSD symptoms of depression, anxiety, insomnia and sometimes psychosis, those meds are called antidepressants, antianxiety, sleeping pills and anti psychotics.
integration (some people have the ability to choose whether to integrate or not and for others it just happens as a normal part of the therapy process)

there is no medication to treat DID directly but that doesnt mean you just have to live with it. people do heal from having it, I used to have DID, now I am one whole person again thanks to years of therapy, meds and learning how to not use dissociation to abnormal levels, meeting and solving my problems face on.