[crystalrose]

My T today asked host for the first memories of switching,,
I felt very vulnerable with the history being spoken,,
I mean we unravel everything then what is left?
I want to talk and help her see, but her knowing nothing means that I have more idea about what they therapist will think and more risk for her to judge.

So chaos happens, we get lost,

We eat fast food burgers for dinner and at least a litre of coke. Then body feels sick.

So we go home.
Anyway host has allowed us to get out, cos our gatekeeper has gone missing, we dont know where gatekeeper is and it makes me sad.

Silk (Girly Alter aged 15)

[Claritytoo]

One of my gate keepers stepped aside when my girls were moving closer to me. Maybe he's gone so your alters can talk in session.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by crystalrose

My T today asked host for the first memories of switching,,
I felt very vulnerable with the history being spoken,,
I mean we unravel everything then what is left?
I want to talk and help her see, but her knowing nothing means that I have more idea about what they therapist will think and more risk for her to judge.

So chaos happens, we get lost,

We eat fast food burgers for dinner and at least a litre of coke. Then body feels sick.

So we go home.
Anyway host has allowed us to get out, cos our gatekeeper has gone missing, we dont know where gatekeeper is and it makes me sad.

Silk (Girly Alter aged 15)

maybe your gatekeeper isnt missing, maybe that one is part of you all now so that all of you can now make your own choices without someone else telling you what to do. maybe the gate keeper decided you are all strong enough now to tell the therapist what happened to each of you/ what you like to do/ what you dont want to do and all kinds of fun things too. all that can happen now with the gate keeper not standing in the way preventing you all from talking and getting close to the therapist.

you asked whats going to be left after everything is unraveled....well whats left is you all will have a better relationship with each other and you wont have to hide any secrets from each other and you can all start feeling lots better.

[crystalrose]

Thanks.
That helps heaps.
The thing is I don't think I know everything that happened and I am afraid that I will work it out one day and wont cope with knowing it.

[crystalrose]

Thanks.
That helps heaps.
The thing is I don't think I know everything that happened and I am afraid that I will work it out one day and wont cope with knowing it.