[poepawn]

Ive been struggling with anxiety and depression since and early age. I happened to be repeatedly sexually abused by the neighbors babysitter. I as well as my younger brother, and the neighbors children, who was left in the abusers care. When it came out to my mother, we were still very young. My brother and I were taken to Parents United. I went, even had to face the abuser as he cried and apologized over and over again. My brother and I had nothing to say. But I do now. After years and years of fighting depression, anxiety, and the recent death of my younger brother. for whom I still havent fully grieved becasue its so unreal. After reading the signs and symptoms of Dissociation Disorder, I was floored at how everything seemed to hit dead on. And how stupid of me to have gone this long thinking I was dealing and everything was ok. So Now i am so afriad of dealing with all these repressed memories and emotions im going to loose control of my life and what i have worked so hard to try and make for myself. Im just now waiting for my appoint and reevaluation with the doctor, just anxious and needing to talk to someone.

[Claritytoo]

I had the very same fears. I thought the repressed memories would consume me. But it doesn't work that way. I am moving toward remembering but my alters are taking their time. It seems that sense my alters have been protecting me from the memories all these years they don't just let it all out at once. There is a part of me that wants to get it over with and just remember but I'm not ready. I am learning about us and slowly being able to accept that I was abused. This is a good site to learn more about how others are dealing with DID. I wish you well