not sure what is real

lots of memories coming up
how could parents be so blind about caregivers?
maybe they didnt care
maybe it isnt true
just so confused
dont know what to believe

thanks for sharing your thoughts...heres a thought I had when I was going through the same confusion/denial/acceptance issues....

I dont have to ....believe....I can go with what I ....feel....instead of a belief...

how that worked with me was that if I felt one way one moment and differently the next moment that was ok.

during the moments I felt it was real I asked myself.....what do I need right now? Do I need to just sit with this feeling? do I need to cry, laugh, smile, be angry...do I need to confront those that I feel harmed me?....

I did the same thing during the moments when it didnt feel real...

I just accepted my feeling the way I was in that moment, honored that feeling and self nurtured in what ever ways I needed at that moment.

It is good for you to be able to remember no matter what the truth is. Once you can remember you can process it so that it remains in the past where it belongs. Have you talked to you t about these memories. We all have sadness from the things that happened to us in the past. What is important is to remember it is the past and we live in the present. Be strong and you will be free. Take care.