I don't "feel" DID anymore

I mean... Denial, again?
I doubt it.
It's just that although I keep losing time it's like if I wasn't DID anymore. Perhaps I'm almost not co-conscious but it's like... Everything's fine... When everything used to be wrong before.
I don't know but I feel like I miss them
What am I supposed to do?
Wait until they come again?
Try to find them?
i'm so confused
Tom

I'm sorry, but I don't have any good advice for you; but we all go thru stages where we don't feel "the same." Lots of hugs to you.

I know the feeling. when I was first diagnosed I watched every movie on the subject I could find, read every book and would tell my therapist but I dont ....feell...DID.

my therapist would say ok so what does DID feel like..and I would say well this movie says it feels this way and that book says it feels that way. my therapist laughed and said no Im not talking about that glorified crap. Im talking about ....you. how does DID feel in you. I said I dont know, I feel the same as I have always felt. my depression has kicked in so Im feeling a bit down but thats better then being manic, tired from work and school, I dont know whats your point, you always have a point lol .

she said there is no one way to feel DID just like there is no one way to feel having a cold, or depression or anything else. the symptoms/problems are going to be coming and going according to all kinds of factors in your life...do you always feel suicidal when you are depressed?

my answer...no sometimes I just feel heavy, sad, other times I feel suicidal, sometimes I feel like I cant get motivated other times I dont feel that way.

my therapist said exactly. you are not going to always be able to hear your alters, you are not always going to know when they have been around and when they havent.

Just trust yourself or should I say your internal system of alters. whether you knew it or not you have been DID all your life and here you are. that in itself is a testament to your alters abilities to do what they have been created to do. so things are quiet right now, enjoy the peace/quiet/tranquility/stability while it lasts. When things pick up again we will know what to do next.

I went through many mood swings where I didnt ....Feel....DID and many more when I did feel my dissociative symptoms. over all I just followed my treatment providers advice and everything worked out.

my suggestion trust your internal system to be doing what ever they were created to do. they have gotten you this far they will continue. my next suggestion is we cant tell you what to do, whether you should go look for them or not...only your treatment providers can tell you how best to approach this problem. so consider contacting your treatment providers and filling them in on your thoughts.

Thank you so much
I can't have a treatment at the moment for reasons that have been already mentioned in other posts, like my parents' denial about it and lack of money, but your post really helped!
Now for some reason when I read this post I felt like... not like if I didn't remember it at all, but like it was so dreamy, but I recognized it as something mine, not made by another alter. It's difficult to explain but... I guess you're right, I've had a large period of ~2 months being I guess so co-conscious and not aware of what they did but of when were they here.
Thank you again!
Tom