This too shall pass

This too shall pass, I know it will.

I'm rocking and rolling with really uncomfortable symptoms. I'm wiped out exhausted, stressed, triggered. Short on sleep.

What I do know: this too shall pass, this is time to tend to basics such as food water rest distraction safety sleep, I have a psych appointment Monday and a therapist appointment Tuesday, I can call crisis services if I need to, I don't have to go anywhere tonight or tomorrow, I have a fun movie to watch and entertaining books.

I feel really floaty, falling out the left side of my body, and a new one to me: I found myself earlier today concerned that my entire being would leak out my knees.

Amidst all this I'm relatively stable, I do know what is going on, I know this will pass, I just feel like hell right now.

Recent stresses: needing to call police because of domestic violence next door, my birthday, season changes, new neighbors elsewhere being noisy and different, school shootings in news, socializing tons more which is both good but triggering this time, friend hospitalized, ongoing poverty, increase in physical symptoms.

Oh and perimenopause. So.....yeah.



Writing this is somewhat of a test, to show myself that I can write things down and survive. I feel vulnerable, yet I am safe in so many ways.

I am not bad. If I am floating, that can be okay, as long as I am safe. I can watch a fun movie now with teddy bear and enjoy some distraction. A soak in a hot bath sounds really good too.

All of you out there, all of us, I'm grateful to us all. We keep on keepin' on.

We're here.

We won't lack water cause of all the tears.

And since tears are salty, the water will be buoyant, so we will all float pretty good.

I'd like to have a talk with whoever schedules emotional and psychological cycles, cause I am due for a vacation.

(Thanks sweet Petunia)

I understand floaty and leaky parts and tears.

(((((((((((((((( CedarS ))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((((CedarS))))))))))))))

Sleep is good.

I sure feel miserable but I'm going to keep on keepin' on.

Add to that list of stresses the fact that I'm also moving soon. Plus our town has recently gone through a lot of recent stress crime wise.

If it was Halloween already I wouldn't need a costume, I feel like a ghost.

I have yucky errands I have to do today and then get to retreat. I figure even if I burst into tears in public, that is okay, just a human thing to do.

Nice to meet you cedar. I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now. I hope things settle down emotionally for you very soon.

It's so hard when lack of sleep happens. For me, it makes everything else seem 10 times worse. Good to see you here, take care.

Thanks everyone, my sense of humor is slowly returning, sleep is really helping. Other than health care appointments next week I plan to get a lot of rest, I've been really short on sleep, overly wired.

CedarS

(((((safe hug)))))))