Lost control

Usually I have full control regarding letting "the others" out. Well, on Friday the 15 year old got mad and smashed our head against the tile corner of our shower! It caused a big goose egg to form and "I" regained control and had to come up with a story really quick before the hubby got home from the store. I made up a story about getting dizzy and falling into the wall. He bought the story! so of course when other people saw the knot on my head I told the same story.
I haven't lost control in soo long that I forgot I needed to control them.
Now the 15 year old said that he is going to break our arm or wrist! He won't say why he is so angry and it's scaring me. I can't tell anyone IRL about them because I told everyone that "the others" were gone. I don't want to end up in the hospital again!

that certainly is a scary situation you are in. have you been able to control the others in the past without coming to harm to yourself? it definitely sounds like they are back and want attention. plenty of people deal with their others without having to be hospitalized, so why the fear of having to be hospitalized. cant you get assistance from a therapist in dealing with them without this drastic step? please contact someone for help asap before this gets worse. take care.

yes, I have been able to control them for a while now. I guess I just let my guard down. I am afraid if i tell my psychiatrist he will put me in the hospital because he doesn't know about "them". I am in between therapists and will be seeing a new one on tuesday but i don't know if i can trust her as i haven't even had one session with her yet. I don't have anyone to reach out to, but thanks.

A thought....if the problem is caused from letting ones guard down then wouldnt being diligent / putting your guard back up /going back to using what ever means that you used when you were able to have control fix the situation...

when ever something I have had control over in the past but suddenly goes out of whack my therapist says...

lets look at this for a moment...how did you have control over this dissociative problem in the past? and I would say this is what I have been doing this or that grounding technique. but I stopped doing that..I guess I just let my guard down or I didnt want to continue doing that any more..She would laugh and say in a funny voice over "doctor I hurt when I do this and the doctor says then dont do that." her point was I had caused my own problem by not continuing to follow through with what I know works for that type of problem. By not being diligent in keeping my guard up/doing what ever works against my dissociative problems the problem came back to haunt me.

once I went back to using grounding again the dissociative problem went back to my being able to have control over it again.

since you know what works with this problem just go back to doing what ever worked that gave you control.

my suggestion for seeing the new therapist....consider telling that therapist about your dissociative problems..that new therapist may have some new therapeutic techniques that your post therapist didnt have that may be helpful to you.

I told my last T about the others and all she wanted to know were their names and ages. I dont think she could handle it but i will try it with my new T and hope she gets it and can help! Thanks for the help!