[Patagonia]

I was diagnosed w/ PTSD in December of this year. In April I joined an online chat & didn't realize stories were getting way out if control. (Sorry this is choppy-extremely nervous of being noticed). Last month the stories fell apart & I was exposed. My therapist calls it fantasy prone personality & says it's used on the dissociative scale. I feel like I was dealt w/ like a criminal on the forum. I was banned & over 50 people posted horrible comments about me which lead to extreme reprimanding by my 'parts', self hatred, SI & SU. I know I did great damage there to others & lost their trust. I never meant to do anything malicious. I feel that no one understands my side of the story & all fingers r pointing @ me in disgust. I'm hated & very shamed. Was I dealt w/ unjustly or did I get what I deserved?
Thanks Patagonia

[volatile]

omg no one deserves that. It sounds like they were just some miserable people that wanted to make YOU miserable as well.
I was never diagnosed with any FPP but I know I have something like that. I use fantasy to escape reality and I've done that my entire life. I've always built castles in the sky. I used to make up stories when I was younger that were very exaggerated and i honestly even believed them at some point. I was never found out though but even if I was I would not have deserved to be attacked in such a way. I am so sorry that happened to you. I can't believe people are so cruel.

[Perna]

Originally Posted by Patagonia

Was I dealt w/ unjustly or did I get what I deserved?

I would not look at it like that. You made things up and others became angry and upset when they found out. That's about them. Obviously you probably will not go back to this chat anymore but I would certainly discuss what happened with your therapist and see what you can learn about your behavior and "why" you may have done it.

[Patagonia]

Yes it was extremely embarrassing to take this to my T's & tell them. I'm ashamed & humiliated. I understand the need I have to be reprimanded so I continue to check the thread feeling obligated to hear from another person how angry they are & what a wretched person I am.
I've learned that I've been using this technique thru my life to battle trauma, extreme loneliness & to breath life back into my hollow self. My childish part feels like it wants to be vindicated & have my voice heard of why this happened & say this is my side of the story. The side you won't ever hear. I know it's childish.