[woundedhearts]

Been having for years female issues and I know a lot has to do with the ab*se. Have went to several different OB/GYN's. Test after test, meds, etc. I thought several years ago an internal pelvic ultrasound was the worst and was so triggering. Well 2 years ago the dr feared cancer due to the amount of bl**ding and how long it was and blaa blaa blaa. No need for details here I guess. So she decided to do a biopsy. OMG the triggers were even worse. I came up off the table and was ready to get on the floor. She was really nice with the whole thing. That biopsy I agreed to. Nothing really came about with that.

Well I'm still having major issues and it is even getting worse. I think how can I, but it is. On my cycle for 6 - 8 wks at a time with maybe 1 - 3 days inbetween the next one. Like I never stop. The clotting is worse than anything. I was getting so tired of hearing from dr.s that this is normal and that they cannot do or will not do a hysto due to my weight. Well I found out some information about what could be another issue to my problem. So decided to go to a new Gyno. Well she doesn't take new patients so I decided to go to my PCP and see if he would give me a referral. I told him my issue/problem and he said, well I do that stuff. He was concerned again after he started the exam - (which I had no clue and wasn't prepared to have it) - that I might have cancer. Wanted to do a biopsy and I told him I didn't want it. To make a long story short, he did it anyway, I came flying up off the table and he was so rude and mean to me. Yelling at me that I needed to lay down so he could get the instruments out of me. He finally was able to do that. He was concerned that I hurt myself and wanted to exam if I did. I refused to let him check me. I got my clothes on, totally freaking out and hysterical. He was angry and wanted to talk about what was going on and find out what is the cause of what is happening to my body. I refused to go back. I just walked out, went and got on the bus, and paniced through the whole ride(s) home.

I feel totally violated. People including my T thinks I should report him. I cannot do it for several different reasons. I'm like totally frozen into where I am. I just cannot do it. I do know one thing though, he is no longer my PCP and I will not return back there. It is so difficult for me as it is to go to the dr. Especially that type of dr.

I feel myself seeping back to my past all day, back and forth. Trying the best to do what I need to do to take care of myself. I just don't know what to do right now. Freaking out and don't want to go to bed. It is after 2 am here and I know I need to get some rest. I have a headache already for having not much sleep.

Ohhh I am suppose to have a sleep study also. Well he is suppose to order it. My pdoc wants me to have one. Well he isn't going to be ordering it because I ain't going back to him. That sleep study is going to be difficult also.

Well this is a very long post so I won't go into the sleep study in here. Maybe later.

Just feeling very violated and back in my past.

[Evangelista]

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That is horrible what that man did to you(s)...please be extra gentle as you recover..you have been violated..and that man is bad....you must do what you can do to take care of yourself(s)...know that we are hear to listen and support...take care wounded heart(s)...

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I am amazed and happy you didn't do any internal damage getting up off that table. He should have stopped the appointment the minute you said no. Sorry that happened to you. Hang in there.

[p1ece5]

We are shocked at what was done to you. The only time i saw a ob/gyn was a r**e kit; and that was horrid and not by choice.
I forget sometimes how much my caregiver/SO does for me. I wish everyone was that lucky.
:You did good, i don't think we would have known what a bus was at that point. You have courage just for going to one in the first place and to have ANOTHER one forced on you isn't right. I know what that feels like. The ER doc said i was endanger of hurting myself so either i get one done or he would chapter me and order one to be done; in my best interest, of course. And that was like a year ago, and i still have body problems.
Stay with us, we'll help in any way we can,
Take care of yourself
we'll be sending soothing thoughts your way.
-p1ece5 - Tillie

I'm really sorry for what you went through. I'm aghast that man could be so unprofessional. He deserves to be reported to say the least.

Try to hang in there... ((((woundedhearts))))

[woundedhearts]

Thanks everyone. Didn't get much sleep. Couldn't lay down completely until after 4:30 this morning and was heavly drugged to even do that. Couldn't relax. Body hurts all over. From waist to upper thighs. So much p**n. I know that some of it is from yesterday and my muscles all tensed up. Was going to go to the store today for groceries, but to exhausted and in p**n to go. I want to lay in bed, but hurts to even do that. Triggering also. This is the worst time of year this could of happened. Trying to remember it's 2006 and not back when I was being harmed. Feeling like a revolving door with all the switches and how fast they are. Not sure who is out and what is going on most of the time. Well I'm out, but there is more presents of others and the switches with it is awful. I'd rather have a full switch with them coming out instead of me still being out and they start to switch and then go back in really fast. Probably sense the feeling of the body in p**n and then go back in. Wish the revolving door would stop.

[(JD)]

GRRRR I'm so sorry the doctor was/is SO ignorant! Yes, report him. You don't have to report him to the Board, but do at least report him to your insurance carrier. My family had to do this because of an MD who was taking money treating the elderly but all he did was say, "well what do you expect? You're old!" We reported him to the medicare ins. as the reason we wanted to change Mom from that service.

Do you think you can report him at least to them? Try and think of it not as revenge, but as doing a service to another female? If only someone had reported him before you had your terrible experience! There are good docs out them, and I send good wishes for you to find one.

Sleep studies are not nearly as demanding/invasive. You do need to share ALL of your problems with being confined, wired etc to the nurses. The bulk of them are pretty nice, imo. TC!

[woundedhearts]

Bad bad news about this...............................

((( woundedhearts )))

I'm on right now if you need to talk. Feel free to PM if I can help, even if just to listen.

[woundedhearts]

Thank you got bad news about biopsy so not doing good.

Oh no, wounded. I'm so sorry. Everything all at once.

Hope you have some 3D support. We are all right here too.

If there's anything any of us can do, just let us know.

There's a great bunch of caring people here that want to help.

[bipolar_bear]

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[woundedhearts]

Found cancer cells

[wanttoheal]

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Know it's scary and I'm so sorry for that. Don't give up though. There are a lot of things that can help. I did at one time and went to an herbalist. I am cancer free now. I hope you feel better soon.

[bipolar_bear]

I am so sorry. I am here if you ever want to talk. (((((((((((((((((((((woundedhearts))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry woundedhearts... you're going through so much. (((( woundedhearts )))) I sincerely hope there's something the docs can do etc. Please don't give up.

[Evangelista]

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Eva....

[(JD)]

Oh no. Can you share exactly? I hope they have it wrong.

[Fuzzybear]

[woundedhearts]

Don't know yet. Have to go to new dr since the last one was a jerk. Have an appointment this week to find out more and see what is the next step and what not. Withdrawing from everyone. Too much going on. Bad time of year, this, the dr, stress with support group we go to, stress with T.....all caving in. Will fill you all in more with it as I find out more info as well as my nerves calm down. I'm falling all apart and trying everything to keep the last string of myself together without a total melt down.

[bipolar_bear]

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[CedarS]

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