[ThisWayOut]

I have the hardest time connecting to different aspects of myself. I've slipped back into my more "professional" self and cannot understand the emotional side tonight. Earlier, I could not separate myself from my emotions even for a brief moment to try to find a way through them... I hate how thick and solid the walls get between my awareness. I can recognize the concept of the other state, but have no connection to it... :/

[innocentjoy]

Hugs!
I often find that even though I don't lost time, and am aware of all the parts, when I'm in one zone it's like I don't even know how to feel, think or act any differently. Like when I'm an angry part, or depressed part, it's like I don't remember evern being happy or excited or peaceful. i can remember everythign that happened, but not what it felt like. I don't know if this is partly what you were talking about, but I DO understand being frustrated with the walls and barriers.

[ThisWayOut]

Yeah, only it's not DID for me, just different sides, or different rooms in a house... but yeah. I just can't connect to another when I'm in a different spot. I can know it intellectually (know that I had those feelings or know that I wrote something, etc.) But I just can't feel it in the moment no matter how hard I try... it drives me nuts sometimes.