[January]

I am posting this here because I know many of you don't go to the Creative Forum. I remember when I truly did not understand this song. My big brother used to sing it and I could not understand his sadness. Now I do...life as it goes by, sometimes comes at a horrible price.

<font color="blue">Yesterday, when I was young,
The taste of life was sweet, as rain upon my tongue,
I teased at life, as if it were a foolish game,
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame

The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned,
I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand,
I lived by night, and shunned the naked light of day,
And only now, I see, how the years ran away

Yesterday, when I was young,
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me,
And so much pain, my dazzled eyes refused to see

I ran so fast that time, and youth at last ran out,
I never stopped to think, what life, was all about,
And every conversation, I can now recall,
Concerned itself with me, and nothing else at all

Yesterday, the moon was blue,
And every crazy day, brought something new to do,
I used my magic age, as if it were a wand,
And never saw the worst, and the emptiness beyond

The game of love I played, with arrogance and pride,
And every flame I lit, too quickly, quickly died,
The friends I made, all seemed somehow to drift away,
And only I am left, on stage to end the play

There are so many songs in me, that won't be sung,
I feel the bitter taste, of tears upon my tongue,
The time has come for me to pay,
For yesterday, when I was young </font>

(Copyright © 1969, Hampshire House Publishing
Original French Lyric and Music by Charles Aznavour
English Lyric by Herbert Kretzmer
Recorded by Roy Clark , 1965

There is still time for happy songs, Jan. We have to hold on to the hope that they will come.

[January]

I don't know how to make them happy, Pet. I know I have to make the change in thinking, but I honestly don't know how.

Thank you so very much for answering. It means so much.

I like your siggy.

Hugs,

Jan

Maybe we can't make them happy Jan...maybe they will just come to us in disguise.

[SeptemberMorn]

I can relate. Youth, they say, is wasted on the young.

I've often cried listening to this song, but I refuse to think that I won't sing at least one more happy song.

[bipolar_bear]

I have never heard this song before. How sad it is.

[January]

Maybe they will come to us in disguise, Pet, but I do know that my attitude makes me sad over things I can't control and I have to change that or spend a miserable rest of my life. I just don't know how...

Hugs,

Jan

[January]

Good for you, Tomi. Keep on singing!

Hugs,

Jan

[January]

((((((((((( BP Bear )))))))))

It is sad. I didn't know another way to explain the way I'm feeling. I hope it's ok and didn't upset you too much.

Hugs,

Jan

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( Jan )))))))))))))))

Very sad and poignant, agreed.....

(((((jan)))))
I don't think it's ever too late.....for me it has been just putting one foot in front of the other so to speak. I've lost so much of my life. But now I'm trying to see this as a second chance. True, I'm not able to fulfill the same dreams I had, but that doesn't mean I can't do something----someone told me once that in 5 yrs from now I will be 5 yrs older and I could be 5 yrs the same or 5 yrs having done something---anything.......
Just my 2 cents-----probly only worth 2 cents.....
w_i

[Perna]

The song isn't the whole story. Remember when you were a kid and instantly ran down the beach into the water and couldn't figure out adults because they stayed on the shore and wanted to lay in the sun and you vowed you'd never be like that? There's a million ways that life changes so when you're older you have the "same" opportunities and different/better ones too that you had when you were young. You see things differently when you're older. I'm getting what I denied myself 30+ years ago, almost exactly as I wanted it but back then I realize now I didn't have a clue what it was or why I wanted it. What seems like a waste now, may not be. We can't know how our future life is going to weave things together and work out.

[January]

((((((((((((( Fuzz Bear, WI & Perna ))))))))))))

Thanks to each of you for the hugs and for sharing your thoughts with me. You have made some very good points.

I mourn for relationships that I cannot go back in time and fix. When I was very young and trying my best, I could not see the horrible mistakes I was making. I did not realise that time runs out on fixing them and relationships can be broken forever in one well meant, but wrong, decision.

I grieve. The price is too high. They do not understand that they price is too high. Even if they did, they wouldn't care.

Jan

[princess0974]

Im just feel sad today.

[January]

((((((((( Princess )))))))))

[BENNY]

i think it is beautiful. we've more than earned the right to cry!
it can be healing, but it doesn't mean i can sit around feeling sorry for myself. my sponwser told me if i wasn't sad about the bad stuff in the past, theres something wrong with. it's difficult for me to do a lot of things, but that doesn't mean i can't do it. so what if it takes longer. life is a journey, and i'm out of the mud, and taking a sceneic route. i try to keep thinking about what i am have to be grateful for. like now, my freedom from active abuse, and addiction means a lot to me. etc..........things are better now than they've ever been ( knock on wood ) my past was filled with pain, and i'm just now finding a better way to live. i'm free to express any of the emotions i have. i think it's a great song.

benny

[January]

(((((((( benny )))))))))

I'm glad you have found happiness.

Hugs,

Jan

[SeptemberMorn]

I may just be getting ready to sing, Jan!! Keep your finger crossed for me, ok?

[January]

Go for it, Tomi.