[Detia]

I feel crazy and stupid. We're always co-conscious and we haven't had a diagnosis because I hide these experiences but I'm concerned... worried... actually scared.

There's one who is very sexual, strictly sexual as far as I can tell. Has been around since I was about 13 or so. I don't know where she came from.

No protection. She didn't use protection. I can't find plan B. Please tell me someone has experienced this. It's a threat to my well-being. It was a good friend who's been a partner before and knows them but... She lied to him and...

I don't know. What do I do? I'm stupid... so stupid. I don't know how I couldn't stop her, how I could let her... It's My body... I have to deal with all of the consequences.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Detia

I feel crazy and stupid. We're always co-conscious and we haven't had a diagnosis because I hide these experiences but I'm concerned... worried... actually scared.

There's one who is very sexual, strictly sexual as far as I can tell. Has been around since I was about 13 or so. I don't know where she came from.

No protection. She didn't use protection. I can't find plan B. Please tell me someone has experienced this. It's a threat to my well-being. It was a good friend who's been a partner before and knows them but... She lied to him and...

I don't know. What do I do? I'm stupid... so stupid. I don't know how I couldn't stop her, how I could let her... It's My body... I have to deal with all of the consequences.

Im sorry we can not tell you what to do. the only people that can tell you what to do in this kind of situation is your own treatment providers. my suggestion is contact your medical doctor, or a medical/mental health treatment provider in your off the computer location. they will be able to tell you what your options are based on your own physical and mental health, medications and other options that may be available in your location.

[Claritytoo]

I think it is important for you to talk to your therapist about this. There is no simple answer. Let your therapist know what you are going through. Take care.

[Detia]

I'm scared. I only have a therapist so far... Doctors put me off, I'm just starting to get used to them. I'm afraid of all of the biases that they have when they're supposed to be professionals...

[Restin]

I started at a very young age and it's like that world has totally no connection with the real world. There is just a primal need that knows nothing about social rules and morals. Therapy certainly helps, but it's important to be on birth control pills from the physician. I don't tell my physician my psychiatric problems as physicians aren't usually trained in psychology and mostly aren't so interested either. I think it would help to tell your therapist and try to get your alter aware of real life while taking the birth control. The alter may not even realize that unprotected sex could mean having a baby to raise, and getting pregnant is as easy as catching a cold.

That would be my advice from experience. It turned out to be stage for me and I got through it and co-conscious in about a year. Also there is such a thing as addiction to sex, where that part of you or all of you is seeking to relieve emotional pain by the excitement and good feelings of sex even tho dangerous and temporary. I know this is a sensitive subject and I don't want to give you wrong advice, but that is what worked for me.

[Detia]

Thank you Restin. The perspective is really helpful, even hopeful though I know its different for everyone. I don't know if my therapist is equipped, I've been trying to avoid the subject with her and just focus on depression, anxiety, and self harm. The center doesn't have resources for assessment testing. I guess sooner than later...

I need to find a doctor