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Hello, I'm new to this section. I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD last year and in 2007 I was diagnosed with PMDD. I had a lot of wrong diagnoses between 2007 and now which some would say I had Depression, Panic Disorder, Dystiymia etc. I finally got accurate diagnosis. I have all the symptoms of Complex PTSD. The only thing that I haven't gotten diagnosed is what I think I have in addition to C-PTSD and that is D.I.D.

This all started when one therapist told me about the Inner Child but during exercises for the Inner Child I noticed other places showing up that were older and named. I've noticed a few gaps in my memory and I do have a lot of forgetfulness. Nobody has called me by a different name so far so that's good! haha.

But there are times I don't feel like me but like someone else. I've also noticed when I get "triggered" I tend to behave differently depending on what triggered me. I also noticed that places in me are named and when I'm in that place I like different things sometimes or have different goals. I finally stopped pretending that I don't have D.I.D. and treat it as if was D.I.D. Even though I have NOT talked to my psychiatrist yet because I don't want her to think I'm crazy or Schizophrenic or something. And because I'm scared.

I started a scrapbook for those places that are named and even tried talking to them. At first I didn't get responses until one place spoke up. He calls himself Jerath. And from there I've slowly been able to talk to other places. Some places I think have merged because I feel more whole actually.

I really think this is D.I.D. and not me being crazy. My boyfriend has been really supportive and has attested to my symptoms and saying that when I have been in a place, he often times can't get through to me.

Or sometimes he can but I respond and behave as a different person.

I do remember those times but its hazy a bit.

So I'm wondering what your thoughts are. Mostly I am waiting till I get the disability for C-PTSD to see a therapist and while being treated for C-PTSD, tell them about this. I don't feel safe telling my psychiatrist.

Hello, moonshadegold. Depriving your psychiatrist of vital information is confusing to me. How do you expect to receive the psychiatrist's best work when you are not being forthright?

I wish you well.

short version what you posted can be just about any mental and physical health problem. if you google the symptoms you wrote about you will find that there are millions upon millions of normal, physical and mental problems what you posted can be.....

my point is the only way you will know whether you have DID or not since its symptoms can be so many other things too, is by being honest with your treatment provider.

One thing I can tell you is that everything you posted for some people is consistant with having PTSD, C PTSD, and the other diagnosis's you posted that you have been diagnosed accurately with.

my suggestion continue working with your treatment providers, maybe even print off your post and mail it or hand it to your treatment providers, if you are afraid to tell them face to face, they can explain to you why you were diagnosed the way you were and why DID was not considered a diagnosis for you. if you still dont agree with your treatment providers you can request an inpatient or outpatient psychiatric evaluation for diagnostic purposes. this will be very lengthy and in depth testing that can tell you what your diagnostics are including whether you have DID.

I think the scrapbooking or journal keeping is a great idea - it allows internal places or people to be heard and acknowledged. Yeah, if you don't feel safe with your PDoc, I wouldn't say anything either. Especally since a lot of them tend to disbelieve DID (Even in the hospitals I have stayed at where I always stay, they still say "We don't have that diagnosis here"). Glad you are looking for a therapist. Good luck on your search!