I never got to be young to know how to be old.....And I am so afraid of that......

I am here...listening and I will stay as long as you need

This is Echoes and I have a need to share. Imagine being lost within the whirl of a storm, the endless blowing of winter winds and blinding snow. The feeling of disorientation to all that is surrounding you, not knowing which way to turn for it all looks the same. The echoing winds eerie through mountains appearing through the whispering whips of the wind and the snap of frozen limbs that you know are falling somewhere around you but you know not which direction they may be falling.

The calling whoo, hoooo of a night owl in the midnight darkness whose watching you from all directions but you know not as the silence of their watch is not known yet their call echoes through a dense forest reverberating through the air. Its just heard, sensed just as the eyes through darkness once watched the child and dared you to whisper or move at all. The silent eerie silence still screams within surrounding us all swirling, whispering, in all directions coming from somewhere within that darkness of the night. Trapping your every thought, your every fear of even a whisper, Silence came.

But when the words cannot speak Silence always does somewhere. We are allowing this in hopes to give a hint of what right now cannot be said and is encircling us all. dps is unaware of this, even though she is within the spinning of it all. Maybe that is why she is unaware as she is surrounded in Silence's memories, piercing at times through her ears that hurt with the high pitched ringing of something she cannot hear in words, but silent screams and cries deep within. As real as she is, so are the memories and echoing of what she does not understand or get. While you may be there in the present, she is not always there with you. This is when Silence steps in. She appears within the eyes, silent as the deadly silence of the night.

Echoes

Silence always speaks
It runs deeper than is heard
She often speaks through the eyes
In distant unvoiced words.

Silence speaks in tears
That fall but are unseen
And within the silent cries
Of unknown silent screams.

Silence speaks in unseen pain
Both in body and in the soul
And in the broken pieces
Of a life that is not whole.

Silence sometimes murmurs whispers
Through a sea of broken mirrors
Within so many others hidden
All somewhere sharing unspoken fears.

Silence speaks as memories unfold
Of a life that evil shattered
Through silent abuse’s torture
Within a life that never mattered.

Silence speaks through unheard words
Ones often never seen
Written within this silence
Filling up this silent screen.

Silence speaks when she shuts down
As Fear steps in and takes her place
Then the silence speaks within
Of what Fear cannot erase.

Silence at times has pushed aside
What Fear within cannot show
But still she speaks through signs
The world may never know.

Silence speaks at times through Nobody
With Nothing knowing too
And Worthless knows the silence
Is what carried us all through.

Silence speaks through disbelief
The deny that we all exist
Though the world may laugh and doubt
What we never can resist.

But Silence speaks the loudest
In the darkness of night
In the endless unseen struggles
That are hidden out of sight.

Silent screams still taunt and haunts us
Within the recesses of our mind
As memories reveal the truth
What none alone could ever find.

Silence holds all emotions
Buried and never revealed
Within this silent torture
Of a child’s abuse concealed.

Silence speaks through the child’s
Unrelenting dreams
Within the silenced nightmares
Only evilness could bring.

Silence echoes through the walls
Once Silence’s only means
To hide within the shadows
The safety only the walls could bring.

Shadowed silhouette dancers
Now play out the forbidden scenes
Where Silence too had to walk
Through evil’s unspeakable things.

Silence sometimes pushes
Everyone away
As brainwashed looks appear
Saying we’re okay.

The abuse buried inside
The abusers think they've won
But what they didn't realize
Silence was not done.

Though meek and often quiet
Even one soft spoken word
Allows Silence a voice
One that was never heard.

Seeping through stone barriers
Along slight cracks words now flow
As through the midnight hours
Emerges memories Silence knows.

Through the tap of little keys
Grows the black on white
Of unending silent cries
Silence begins to write.

Blanketed terror struggles
To break through the walls of stone
But Silence allows what comes
In the darkness when we’re alone.

The hidden truth within
Echoes through the cold night air
Telling Silence’s secrets
Of what the daylight cannot share.

Alone the midnight calls her
Through the silence of this screen
The truth in black and white
Tells what no one’s ever seen.

The world now has disappeared
Like it did so long ago
Silent cries fall down in tears
So no one ever has to know.

But as the sun arises
The night has slowly slipped away
Silence gathers all emotions
Hidden behind the mask of day.

Then Silence slips within
Though her eyes you often see
Speaking without words
Although silent as can be.

Yes Silence always speaks
If you listen close you’ll hear
The never ending terror
Of the child who lived in fear.

Echoes (one within dps)

all i can give is some safety during these tough times...

Just.............................doesn't really seem to matter anymore. Just forgive and forget. Such a simple statement one would think, but then again, it seems as though that is what must be expected. Seems others have so why can't I? and not just my siblings.

I can't forgive and forget....pretty unrealistic in my view

DPS....i have'nt had much to share with you on P.C.. But for some reason i often think of you,mabey because what you have shaered an written has really helped and encouraged me.I feel your vibe honey, your trully a beautiful person and i would consider myself honoured if i knew you.So from way across the ocean in Australia...good on you you did reach out and touched my heart.
All love and positive energy from the universe surround you all.

one step at a time. trusting that step. then stepping again. hugs!

Still thinking of you daily, dps. ((((safe hugs))))

I was trying to post, needing to, but never mind. I am too afraid to reach out or say anything and too far away from myself to make sense or even warrant such right to. And I cannot seem to put words together, and I am not sure it even matters or would be important. I just feel lost, and as far away from this world and place than ever before. I'm sorry. I was going to try, but I am losing my thoughts just as fast as they appear. I really needed and wanted to reach out and just try to connect to someone, anyone...............

i'm here...thinking of you...