[vvector0000]

I am experiencing a severe identity crisis, and I am not here. I am having panic attack symptoms that are purely mental, with absolutely no physical symptoms.

I used to have real PA's, but I haven't for years.. but every time I move around I am in a severely dissociated state and.. well..

Who's had this happen to them? It seems like I am on the cusp of a psychotic break. It's really weird. I have clonazepam and it barely touches it at all.

It's like a mental cracking is happening in my brain, and time isn't real, and I'm stuck in non-stop 'what is real, am I here? what the ****?'

Aaaaagh. How to escape? Face it head on?

I have always had an extremely weak identity and after a recent breakup and too much time alone, haven't been able to reclaim who I am, and this feels like slipping into a split dimension. I think I won't fight it.

Thanks for contemplating my .. whatever.

vv

[Claritytoo]

I hope you have mentioned this to your therapist. I take medication that seems to work except when I spend too much time alone. When I spend too much time by myself, like a few days without talking with someone, I start to loose a sense of being real. I always switch. I switch depending on who I am with, where I am and what it is I am doing. But when I do switch in these situations I have a focus. When I am home alone for too long I don't have a particular focus. So my switching just flows with the conversation in my head. If this goes on for too long I start to feel unreal, like I am not connected to the world. This feeling creates anxiety. Eventually I will make the effort to get out of the house even if it is just to take a walk. It's a scary feeling. Before my diagnosis I thought I was going insane. That I was loosing my mind. It helps to know that this feeling of being unreal is part of my diagnosis. It helps me to believe that I am not loosing my mind. I hope you start feeling better.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by vvector0000

I am experiencing a severe identity crisis, and I am not here. I am having panic attack symptoms that are purely mental, with absolutely no physical symptoms.

I used to have real PA's, but I haven't for years.. but every time I move around I am in a severely dissociated state and.. well..

Who's had this happen to them? It seems like I am on the cusp of a psychotic break. It's really weird. I have clonazepam and it barely touches it at all.

It's like a mental cracking is happening in my brain, and time isn't real, and I'm stuck in non-stop 'what is real, am I here? what the ****?'

Aaaaagh. How to escape? Face it head on?

I have always had an extremely weak identity and after a recent breakup and too much time alone, haven't been able to reclaim who I am, and this feels like slipping into a split dimension. I think I won't fight it.

Thanks for contemplating my .. whatever.

vv

when this has happened to me it turned out to be psychosis, mediation problems and drugs/alcohol reactions. since the only people that can tell you what is going on with in your self you will need to contact your/a treatment provider in your off the computer location. they will be able to diagnose what this is and treat it so that you will feel better soon.