[confused43]

I had this dream the other night. I was in my old house when i wasa child. i was in bed and heard a cry i turned over and there were 2 children. twins a boy and a girl. one was laying in one bed adn one was in another. the girl was crying so i picked her up to show her the hill were i go slay riding. in the window i saw a reflextion of more children about ten in a line. when i turned around though i noticed that there were more then that 10 rows of 10 or more. some were not even children. when i asked them who they were and what they wanted the one in front took out a paint gun and said we are your inner child. and squirted me with paint.
i was so scared when i awoke from the dream i couldn't catch my breath or speak for a few seconds. has this ever happend to any of you and what do you think it is all about?
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[(JD)]

So you are scared that you have many "inner children?" Why would this be something to fear, for you? When the child squirted you with paint, was in fun? It appears that you were also self comforting in the dream, very nuturing of yourself. Dreams are what the dreamer makes of them, they are highly personal.

[Crystal88]

No I don't have dreams about my alters. I cant see them but sometimes i hear them. my dreams are usually about doing something that I don't remember doing and then when I tell my friends about it they say - yea we did that on this and this day, or they say you must have dreamt about when we did this.

I find the dreams kind of funny because what I do and don't remember turns up in a dream. Its one of the ways I can find out things that I do and say when I have dissociated. So I keep a journal by my bed at night so that when I wake up the first thing I do is write about.

[Evangelista]

I don't dream about specific alters, but I do have nightmares which incorporate places that abuse has ocurred, i,e. childhood homes, images. I do frequently awake to the alters talking, who when realize I am awake, will go silent, or make comments addressing me now as awake..

My Trauma therapist explained it this way to me. The right brain houses the EP (Emotional parts) and really does not sleep, my left brain awakens, and as I become conscious leads to a "freaky wake up call"..(my terminology not his), as I get to hear subconscious ramblings of alters. He explained it where it made more sense to me on a empirical level.

I dont see my alters, I do have a sense of seperate identities, ages, personality, beliefs, behaviors...I do have visual hallucinations projected from those parts, I am told this can happen and he termed it.."Dissociative Pyschosis"..some of the images are pieces of trauma videos stored at the subconscious level which will be projected when I am triggered, others are just wierd images of violence, contorted some how.

After my recent surgery, I had a dream about injured children, laying in rows, bandaged, moaning, like they had been in a war. I was walking past them on a stairway, going down, which suddenly abruptly gave way into a dark abyss, as I grabbed a hold of rail..trying not to fall into the abyss...my Trauma therapist helped me when I asked what this could represent... the altered states, not actual alters, but representative images of the injured child parts..and the abyss was literally the level of subconscious warzone they exist in..but again...I dont know much about dream states and what things represent...he was much better at helping me understand representations of specific items in the dream, like the stairway..etc..

Everyone's dissociative experiences can be different, I am just sharing my own as it relates to dreaming, and seeing alters..thanks for sharing your experience Confused43, and letting me share mine.