[Gr3tta]

The chatter in my head tonight is way too loud tonight. I need everyone to quiet down. Trying to sooth them.

[IB splitting]

Yes very loud like a crowded bar on a Friday night. I keep splitting can't stop. Am I dreaming not sure it's like a black and white movie only going fast forward so I don't understand only small bits and pieces. Shaking, scared,

[Willowtrees]

Iop really isnt helping. I want to get my last prescription there, set up an appointment with my pcp to.continue them, and just go to them and my therapist. It feels like im at school or working. More people keep showing up in the house, probably to be 'born' soon. I have insomnia again. I cant do this. Ive done it for almost 2 months now and im just getting worse. I need my peaceful week back.

[Lady Lindsey]

I am frightened, scared and terrified all at the same time..... Why does therapy make things worse.... before it gets better.... when will it get better?

I'm just taking it as it comes, like I've been doing forever. Can't really fight it because there is nothing to fight.

Originally Posted by Gr3tta

The chatter in my head tonight is way too loud tonight. I need everyone to quiet down. Trying to sooth them.

ugg same

though i'm not sure why i'm complaining because it's most nights

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I'm just taking it as it comes, like I've been doing forever. Can't really fight it because there is nothing to fight.

hey how was the start of your CBT?

how'd it go for you

[Claritytoo]

We are having moments where we are not respecting each others individuality. Where one will remark on someones comment as stupid or useless. This is new. We all make stupid and useless comments from time to time, It's the human condition but we were more understanding, more patient with each other. I am not certain why this is happening. For us to function in the world we need to be patient and not reactive. I am feeling reactive to certain thoughts lately. Also someone thinks we will "lose it" and start freaking out in public. I don't know who thinks that or why. Maybe they think that because of the dissension that is occurring. I don't know. Maybe.

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

hey how was the start of your CBT?

how'd it go for you

DBT- We went, and we can see where it would be good for a singleton to work on behavior, but what about a multiple? I don't even remember what it was about because I wasn't the one there. We discussed quitting, but we're going to go one more time at least and get their opinion on a few things.

[Gr3tta]

My t has suggested one of my alters is psychotic. I dont know how to feel about that.

[Lady Lindsey]

Today is a good day

We climbed a small ladder to cut a branch and the ladder twisted out from under us resulting in me body slamming the concrete with my back and head.

So we're in pain. It feels like I got hit by a train.

[Kiya]

really damned triggered from reading something... dunno if we can stay safe. had urges earlier but got through. sometiesm there's just one too many triggers.
name of abuser in a book
dentist
can't finda new therapist (urges)
triggering post
yesterday's panic attack in physical therapy.....
O_o

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

We climbed a small ladder to cut a branch and the ladder twisted out from under us resulting in me body slamming the concrete with my back and head.

So we're in pain. It feels like I got hit by a train.

I'm so sorry about the fall. Are you all ok?

Take it easy, friend. I hope you feel better soon.

Originally Posted by Lexa2526

I'm so sorry about the fall. Are you all ok?

Take it easy, friend. I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you hun, we're slowly recovering. I just have a few sharp pains left in my lower back and neck. We're taking it slowly.

That was so messed up. I threw the ladder away because it was all twisted up.

[IB splitting]

Bite to remind the bitten.

[Kiya]

((((always))))

I'm so like having a few drinks. Sarah cooked dinner, the guys have called it a day, so I'm up bS.ing.

I've got a stiff neck, but it's going away. I so wish that I can go out and about, but I so wish I wasn't physically alone.

[Willowtrees]

If you guys remember that post I made about not knowing if someone liked me or not, feeling nervous about putting myself out there or making mistakes, and feeling so naive about 'real relationships'.. They like me!!! We kissed!! It feels so wonderful, Ive never felt this way before, its like people must feel like in those movies. And they are 'putting up with me' as well as the others just fine. I dont even know what else to say. Just some good news. I feel happy about this.

Josh

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by Willowtrees

If you guys remember that post I made about not knowing if someone liked me or not, feeling nervous about putting myself out there or making mistakes, and feeling so naive about 'real relationships'.. They like me!!! We kissed!! It feels so wonderful, Ive never felt this way before, its like people must feel like in those movies. And they are 'putting up with me' as well as the others just fine. I dont even know what else to say. Just some good news. I feel happy about this.

Josh

yay!!! so hope this is wonderful for you!

[Kiya]

met a new t last night - TOTALLY mentally ill and should not be practicing. FREAKED me out way bad. recovering. managed to not go inpatient - win! still shaky and freaked out about cancelling my next session with him. My pnurse might help me with that one. I can't remember where I write things on the boards, so if none of this is news, please forgive me.

[IB splitting]

Guess I feel lucky to have found a female T that I can trust. No male T no no not ever. I was looking at my problem list, which is very long and I'm not sure what this one means it says ( Pers HX mental disorder Nec ) IB is to afraid to ask?

I just can't believe how stagnant we've become. I guess kids do that you.

[Kiya]

IB, I dunno what that stands for :/ try running it through a Google Search?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by IB splitting

Guess I feel lucky to have found a female T that I can trust. No male T no no not ever. I was looking at my problem list, which is very long and I'm not sure what this one means it says ( Pers HX mental disorder Nec ) IB is to afraid to ask?

Pers HX mental disorder Nec is IDC (diagnostic manual that some locations use) it stands for ....personal history of mental disorder Never Ending Cycle.

its the american equivalent of someone telling their treatment provider what their mental disorder is and that its chronic (never goes away or goes away and comes back)