[Kiya]

Hmmm, thanks - I hadn't thought of that angle. I just told her I wouldn't call at all and she said ok.

Originally Posted by amandalouise

no kiya you dont ask for too much. one time I was upset when a treatment provider would not accept calls from my alters. i took the time to ask her why. she told me that with a system like mine where there were violent alters comes a legality of what treatment providers can and cant do. they have to set firm boundaries so that alter who may be a danger to their self and others can not harm the therapist or others.

one of the examples my therapist used is lets say a violent alter called and made threats of harm to their self or others including the therapist. the therapist is a mandated reporter. that means if someone called her after hours and threatened suicide, self injury or made other threats the therapist had no choice but to call the police. she would rather work with me one on one during therapy than to have to call the police after hours.

Another example my treatment provider used was that being on the phone dealing with a crisis is like being online with someone who is making threats of harming oneself or others. you cant see them so theres no way to know what is actually going on and whether they have actually already harmed their self or others. and in the event of a major crisis theres no way that a treatment provider can hop out of bed, get dressed and meet the client somewhere neutral and private to work on the threat of harm to oneself or others. that person can just drop the phone, walk away from the phone, hang up and do what ever anyway. her point when dealing with a crisis by phone theres no way of knowing which way positive or negative that phone call is going to go.

not sure if Im remembering right but if you are the one with the violent alter that bites that may be why she is setting such strict boundaries. maybe she is afraid that if this alter doesnt like how the phone call is going they will act out by biting you or others that may be around at the moment.

maybe you and your treatment provider can talk about boundaries and what that treatment provider considers a crisis. maybe you and her definition of a crisis are different. you can also talk about the what if you call with a crisis whats going to happen. this way maybe you will be more comfortable with how and why your treatment provider is setting such strict boundaries as not accepting phone calls from your alters, only from you when you are able to be the one in control.

[Georgia Bridge]

I don't usually feel comfortable posting on this thread. I'd like to.
I feel so far away from where most of y'all are.
I'm mostly in denial, i guess... it's like having D.I.D. is just normal and needs no attention.
I don't have anyone to talk to about it and when I think to talk to the others a huge "that's illegal" message appears from one or more of them.
The only time I've felt comfortable talking to an alter was on this website.
I want to start a tread, but I don't even know how to start or what to ask.

Originally Posted by Georgia Bridge

I don't usually feel comfortable posting on this thread. I'd like to.
I feel so far away from where most of y'all are.
I'm mostly in denial, i guess... it's like having D.I.D. is just normal and needs no attention.
I don't have anyone to talk to about it and when I think to talk to the others a huge "that's illegal" message appears from one or more of them.
The only time I've felt comfortable talking to an alter was on this website.
I want to start a tread, but I don't even know how to start or what to ask.

Have you tried keeping a notebook for your others and you to jot in? It's a little more private allowing for freedom of sharing out of public scrutiny, unless your others enjoy the publicity, I'm sure others don't. I use a writing app with a stylus which allows for instant erasure after a few sentences. As the words get laid down, words pop in mind.

I like doing that. The others don't care about all this, I'm just the one that gots to know! Lol

It's getting where I'm tired of focusing on this condition. It's feeling hopeless and moot to keep addressing it. I haven't found anyone that cared or all are out of reach.

I can do without the stress from a daily reminder by talking about it. I'm sorry. At least I'm able to function enough....I'm used to this. At least we come across as absentminded, or memory inept, and weird in a non-threatening way most of the time.

Feeling weird is the norm....nothing new.

Just ignoring it with a ignorant smile has always worked. We're well versed in damage control and dealing with consequences no matter how degrading it is.

I'm grateful that we can somewhat maintain a lifeline.

[knit roses]

Am meeting my kids for the first time. It's quite an adjustment in thinking. This whole time I thought I was having time slips with a parallel universe, quantum physics type. But no.
My 4yo Congita has shared her secrets with me. (childhood abuse)
My 8-10yo Congi does not make eye contact or speak. She doesn't want anyone to touch her. Today I am okay. The last week has been rough. Flashbacks galore.

we're back to having the flashbacks at night.

and apart from that absolutely nothing to say

our life has been 1 massive big black hole

Everything's okay today. Been having emotional waves overcome my stability. When I'm having moments of disbelief, I just remind myself that nobody normal thinks or behaves like I do.

I've been under attack... Like it's not a normal thing.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Everything's okay today. Been having emotional waves overcome my stability. When I'm having moments of disbelief, I just remind myself that nobody normal thinks or behaves like I do.

glad everything is okay with you.

yay

[krazy_phoenix]

I've been up-down-round-and-round. But still breathing. Somehow still moving forward. A miracle in itself. Hope some of you remember me.
I would love to write something strong and meaningful but I got nothing.
Still got 'energies' (our name for alters), two have spontaneously integrated, which, had you asked us five years ago if it was possible would have said no,no,no. Still have some energies in the shadows yet to discover. Scary. If anything, in the last 7-8 yrs, I've become "less surprised" by things that happen. Able to use my tool box learned in therapy to rifle through and make better sense of things. Anyway, I lurk around PC. I read stuff, want to reply but get stuck.
Hope everything is ok in your world. Hope the world is still turning, no matter how slowly, but forward nonetheless.
Take care all,
Kp

Originally Posted by krazy_phoenix

I've been up-down-round-and-round. But still breathing. Somehow still moving forward. A miracle in itself. Hope some of you remember me.
I would love to write something strong and meaningful but I got nothing.
Still got 'energies' (our name for alters), two have spontaneously integrated, which, had you asked us five years ago if it was possible would have said no,no,no. Still have some energies in the shadows yet to discover. Scary. If anything, in the last 7-8 yrs, I've become "less surprised" by things that happen. Able to use my tool box learned in therapy to rifle through and make better sense of things. Anyway, I lurk around PC. I read stuff, want to reply but get stuck.
Hope everything is ok in your world. Hope the world is still turning, no matter how slowly, but forward nonetheless.
Take care all,
Kp

hi

don't remember seeing your name- but good to see you none the less!

i'm glad that you are moving forward in life- that's great, and it's something we wish we could do... we're just so mentally and emotionally tired- and every day we ask the same questions.. what's life got to offer us? and what have we got to offer life

back to 0 days of not harming. did it last night without actually meaning to

bad flashbacks too and usual lack of support

it's this nul and void existence that has been going on for too long

on a positive note, we've been eating well (well, not well as in healthily) but well as in not overeating

The others have been presenting more lately which is fine. The lines are getting blurred as far as who we are, the way our system functions. There's a part that wants to know everything exactly that it stresses out us others, leaving feelings of uncertainty and wanton. I wish he would quit.

Last night Steve showed up and he was pissed at some of us. He's mad that not much has been getting done. He's right though, we've been not doing much because that's what we do...not much. I can't help it if we're out more now then we ever was because of equal rights. So, we're going to try and do better and get off this tablet and go outside.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Last night Steve showed up and he was pissed at some of us. He's mad that not much has been getting done. He's right though, we've been not doing much because that's what we do...not much. I can't help it if we're out more now then we ever was because of equal rights. So, we're going to try and do better and get off this tablet and go outside.

good luck!

i am sure you can get a lot of stuff done

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

good luck!

i am sure you can get a lot of stuff done

Thanks. We are getting better. The inside of house is close to spotless and fixed. It's rained all week and wanting to go take care of the yard.

I think I'll paint some rooms instead.

[IB splitting]

So true story, the wife and I decide to go to dinner at a really nice restaurant and we were discussing the newest alters that have decided to become active. Keep in mind we did not mention any names. First let me explain my system my alters work in groups of two, one female older, one male younger, the female looks after the male and helps take care of the male. The newest pairs are Kristin-Jesse and Tara-Jason. So the waitress comes we order everything is fine. Then she says I'm training a new waiter tonite his name is Jason and my name is Tara... Are you f-en kidding me right now.... She walked away and the wife and I were in shock, like we just seen a ghost or something... True story .. Wow. By the way the dinner was awesome, we left a ten dollar tip.
Indeed a mystery...

Originally Posted by IB splitting

So true story, the wife and I decide to go to dinner at a really nice restaurant and we were discussing the newest alters that have decided to become active. Keep in mind we did not mention any names. First let me explain my system my alters work in groups of two, one female older, one male younger, the female looks after the male and helps take care of the male. The newest pairs are Kristin-Jesse and Tara-Jason. So the waitress comes we order everything is fine. Then she says I'm training a new waiter tonite his name is Jason and my name is Tara... Are you f-en kidding me right now.... She walked away and the wife and I were in shock, like we just seen a ghost or something... True story .. Wow. By the way the dinner was awesome, we left a ten dollar tip.
Indeed a mystery...

WOW...NS!

(cue twilight music)

[Georgia Bridge]

No way!!! IB, that's strange! I would've gotten real paranoid at one time. Indeed a mystery...
I have alters I know are alters and hallucinations of people I just don't know what to make of.
One of these hallucination people seems to be able to be aware of things going on a long way a way. Then I can see her come back and she'll tell me something that ends up being true.
It sometimes makes us seem psychic. "No, that's just what Mary told us," we are saying to ourselves.
A little hard to explain to other people.... no, not psychic, one of the hallucinations told us.

We're hurting,today. We were triggered earlier. We hoped sleep would help. Sleep just relaxed us to the point where we're being hit with flashbacks more than when we're awake.

We hate this...

We did a small job in another city today. It felt so good to get out. We saw trees and swamp. All things natural. Now we're back home.

hey, haven't seen the original account owners in a while. Thought I'd say

We got out of the house today...sight seen the city and went to the library to sit a spell. Even went and ate Chinese buffet by myself! I deserve it. Everyone else wants to hole up and be miserable in our house.

[Gr3tta]

I volunteered at a mental health fair. Julia did most of the work and had fun with it.

[LostOne369]

We are so confused