My life has been "fake it to you make it, or good Luck trying, fail!" It's so hard. Since I was born I've been fightng nature. Recovery? I can't see it.

Possible trigger:

my redemption is in a 50 cent bullet

. That's so freaking hard the trigger thing. I'm so incurable. No one cares no one believes. Why bother? Any future relationship is life "yeah right!"

"Obtw, I suffer from DID and bipolar syndromes, I'm a catch..your worst ugliest nightmare, how about another date?!?" Hah.

You can figure the rest. I'm on the verge of not caring anymore.

[TheFuZZieONE]

Alwayschanging2,

I'm giving up on dating probably forever. My mind, body and life are all screwed up now, and I don't feel anyone would want me. I was ran over by a truck last July and it crushed my body severely. Now I walk funny. Plus I'm full of scars from the neck down. This is on top of DID and a horrible stalking situation one of my alters got me caught up in. I feel so alone and feel I'll always be alone. Sometimes I get jealous of how easy some people have it
when my life has been difficult from the start.

I've always tried to remain upbeat and positive despite the circumstances, and have always held on to the notion, "things will get better. Well, I think I'm finally at a point when things won't get any better than here. As you said " I'm a real catch." Lol. I'd like to think that someone would look inside me and love me for who I am on the inside, but I'm too much of a realist for that. Maybe I am a bad person who deserves all the pain in my life. Slowly all the people in my life are fading out.

Anyway. Sorry for hijacking your status. I love to talk. Lol