Last night was a bad night for me because I was in a bad place. Then Susie came along and lifted me up like she normally does. Having nobody to talk too, and I knew better but did it anyway, tried to talk about alters to my partner, but I was told that I kept dropping out of "character" and I'm trying to manipulate and that was b.s. because I was treating my partner like crap, what??? Amazing it always gets turned around leaving me hurt and rejected and abused. Then my partner turns my kid against me.

I got mad, slammed doors hoping that it would validate my hurt emotions and all I got was accusations and put downs.

I'm so alone with all this. -Lead Alter

[healingme4me]

I'm so sorry he's not validating your reality. You deserve compassion and support. Is he involved with any nami type support groups or in individual counseling?


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Originally Posted by healingme4me

I'm so sorry he's not validating your reality. You deserve compassion and support. Is he involved with any nami type support groups or in individual counseling?


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We're in the middle of a separation. It's for the best.

[healingme4me]

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It doesn't matter, we don't like the spouse anyways, that's why its a one way road out of here coming real soon!

[TheFuZZieONE]

Alwayschanging2,

This has nothing to do with the post, but congratulations on your new sobriety!! I've been sober for 2 months now. I quit drinking for one reason only and that was to control my alters better. When I drink I don't just have my crazy drunk antics to worry about, but the antics of a bunch of crazy Jens who live inside of me too.

If misery loves company you've got mine. Facing not just depression BPD, but pneumonia and a sprained ankle I couldn't walk on my family told me to take a hike - that they had no interest in helping because THEY ARE ANGRY AT ME. Despite trying to explain to them whats going on all they care about is that they are offended and as far as they are concerned I can go to hell.

I'm sorry a little lost. That's sounds just horrible! No one can hurt you more than family. Get well.

Yes, you are so correct. Families have great power and significance but it can go either way. Right now I am physically and mentally exhausted, I have no resources left for anything and its just a struggle to keep going. Thank you so much for recognizing the power our loved ones have.

[lifelies]

I've personally learned to "unlove" family (if that makes sense) to avoid being hurt by them... I think it's for the best But maybe that's not what you want to do (in fact i'm crazy so don't listen to me)
allie

Originally Posted by lifelies

I've personally learned to "unlove" family (if that makes sense) to avoid being hurt by them... I think it's for the best But maybe that's not what you want to do (in fact i'm crazy so don't listen to me)
allie

It may be very appropriate for me. My son committed the ultimate betrayal of me today and tried to have me committed. I have emotional problems but I am not crazy. he doesn't want to help - he was very hateful and condemning in his conduct, it is his way of SOLVING THE PROBLEM OF MY EXISTENCE. he can shove me into a hole as my mother did so many years ago and that will be that PLUS HE WILL GET TO "GET EVEN" for my perceived wrongs.

[TheFuZZieONE]

A Little Lost,

That's one of my biggest fears. I'm afraid someone will either try to take my son from me or have me committed. I'm the first to admit I'm a little crazy, but I'm not a danger to myself or others. Im just afraid of people's ignorance of MI.

Same here, We're trying to hold it together, tried at least because he's now 16. Now that I've come into full acceptance, the others are ecstatic about it and feel more freely to manifest, which is all right because we know the rules.

Originally Posted by TheFuZZieONE

Alwayschanging2,

This has nothing to do with the post, but congratulations on your new sobriety!! I've been sober for 2 months now. I quit drinking for one reason only and that was to control my alters better. When I drink I don't just have my crazy drunk antics to worry about, but the antics of a bunch of crazy Jens who live inside of me too.

Congratulations to you too hun, that's just awesome. I've just begun to understand what we were doing to the littles, and not everyone likes all the toxins getting pumped into the system. We had a round table discussion and it's like I never knew. So the vote is to be clean and sober for everyone for now on.

[Fuzzybear]

Oh well this is my lucky week - my son who has steadfastly stayed away refusing to talk or even acknowledge i need/want help suddenly swooped in and tried to execute a fast involuntary commitment on me - but luckily he failed. As grief stricken as I have been that would have been the final blow. I might have taken that last final step - but he failed - he also simultaneously stole my son from me and left me with a cold and callous stranger I don't recognize.

Originally Posted by lifelies

I've personally learned to "unlove" family (if that makes sense) to avoid being hurt by them... I think it's for the best But maybe that's not what you want to do (in fact i'm crazy so don't listen to me)
allie

It sounds like a very desirable trait right now - its on my list of things to work on. Thanks