[Claritytoo]

I have been struggling with wanting to move out of state or stay. I am trying to decide if I want to move to get away from the snow or if I want to move to get away from feeling. No matter how many times I think I have the answer I realize I really don't. It might not sound too important but right now it is weighing heavily on my mind. I can't really talk to anyone about it. Only one person knows who I fell in love with and she is not around. And even if she was I am not certain she could help. Right now I am just very sad. I need to move on but it still hurts. I don't know what to do with the hurt. How long is it supposed to hurt.

[TheFuZZieONE]

Clairitytoo,

Heartbreak lasts for different amounts of time depending on the person and the situation. Sometimes it dissipates quicker than we expect, but other times it just seems to linger. I find with MI/DID a couple of scenarios play out. One scenario is I switch personalities and am over someone within a blink of an eye. Other times I repress the hurt so much that I believe I'm over it, only to switch an find myself crying all over again. Big decisions are the hardest for me because I may feel very strongly about something one minute, only to change my mind about it the next minute. I wish I had the right answer, but unfortunately I dont. Hopefully someone else on this forum has some good advice to give you cause I could use some myself! Take comfort that whatever is meant to be will happen no matter which decision you make. Good luck!

[lifelies]

I really wish I could move far far far away from all this hell of a town. But hey, it's springtime here so let's enjoy it
As for what you're saying: I think you want to move away... from the feeling... but you sort of project that feeling into the snow.... or maybe i've read too much Freud
Allie and/or Lana

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by TheFuZZieONE

Clairitytoo,

Heartbreak lasts for different amounts of time depending on the person and the situation. Sometimes it dissipates quicker than we expect, but other times it just seems to linger. I find with MI/DID a couple of scenarios play out. One scenario is I switch personalities and am over someone within a blink of an eye. Other times I repress the hurt so much that I believe I'm over it, only to switch an find myself crying all over again. Big decisions are the hardest for me because I may feel very strongly about something one minute, only to change my mind about it the next minute. I wish I had the right answer, but unfortunately I dont. Hopefully someone else on this forum has some good advice to give you cause I could use some myself! Take comfort that whatever is meant to be will happen no matter which decision you make. Good luck!

Thanks It was kind of you to share. It seems like it has been long enough for it not to hurt so much. I recently saw a picture of him and I was happy to him well and happy. It warmed my heart. But it also reminded me how much I miss him. The friendship. I didn't expect that to happen. I didn't expect to be so emotional. That is why I am thinking about moving. If I move I know I will never run into him. My heart just aches. What I realized after posting yesterday is that the sadness and pain isn't as bad as it was in the beginning. So to some degree I have emotionally moved further away. But I keep thinking if I could just talk to him, joke like we used to, talk about existence and meaning of life efforts, I would feel peace again. Crazy to think that when I can't even see his picture. But he can't be the only reason why I choose to move. And that is what I can't sort out in my head. Thanks again. You helped me to think.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by lifelies

I really wish I could move far far far away from all this hell of a town. But hey, it's springtime here so let's enjoy it
As for what you're saying: I think you want to move away... from the feeling... but you sort of project that feeling into the snow.... or maybe i've read too much Freud
Allie and/or Lana

Your insights is very interesting because I never have felt so strongly about moving because of snow. There is a lot of truth is what you say. Thanks.

[wheredidthepartygo]

i've never much liked winter but i never so entirely loathed it until this winter because my everything was horrible and i was a mess
was the winter worse because i was? or was i worse because of the winter? either way spring's here and i never wanna do another winter again >