[lucidity11]

I recently stopped seeing my t, at first i was worried i might become unstable but i haven't . Now i feel relieved that i don't have to see her. She was my real first t. Has anyone else felt like this. I sort of thought the transition was going to have a greater effect on me.

Hi lucidity, welcome to PC! I really can't help you with that but just wanted to say hi!

i hated therapy because for me, it kicked up issues i wasn't ready to deal with. and when i would express that to whatever therapist it seemed as though they were upset with me. therapy seemed traumatic to me, ahahaha. i haven't been on medications or gone to any kind of therapy, one on one or group, in years, 6 years since medications and at least 10 years + since any kind of therapy. some would say i am not managing well, i personally don't care what they say, i have come a long way on my own rather than any help i got from any medications or therapists....
anyway, welcome to psychcentral. =)

You know, therapy is where they guide you while you do all the work, so having an idea where you are going helps.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

You know, therapy is where they guide you while you do all the work, so having an idea where you are going helps.

i never have any ideas anymore.
lately i feel extremely stupid and like i am going nowhere. it's like doing the running man or something...

Awww, who knows. The whole idea really is to survive with what we got. We got not much or much more, depends on how you look at it. I choose to believe that I'm better for it because I've got so many unrelated skills and many multi approaches to attacking a problem which makes me appear genius smart!

I'm also a fast learner that can teach myself and others at the same time. And then again, there are them days that I'm a drooling idiot with no real brain activity! Lol

[Kiya]

yeah, I've noticed I seem to have less crises when i'm not in therapy (after the first initial month or two).

[lucidity11]

I am a little afraid of not having someone to talk to about my DID. My last t was the only one who knew. This site helps but i wonder if we can return to functioning productivley in the world. Before we thought everyone thought like us. Now we know that is not so. We do more second guessing. I am not used to doubting myself.

Originally Posted by lucidity11

I am a little afraid of not having someone to talk to about my DID. My last t was the only one who knew. This site helps but i wonder if we can return to functioning productivley in the world. Before we thought everyone thought like us. Now we know that is not so. We do more second guessing. I am not used to doubting myself.

Awww, I don't think I can answer that one sweety because everyone's system aren't the same. Also, add to that the severity of the illness. For some, I can see it being life crippling, like any other illness.

Me, I'm aware and I can communicate with my parts, so we're able to appear normal and somewhat function like one. We might come across as missing a few upstairs, but that hasn't completely stopped us yet.

[TheFuZZieONE]

I haven't been to therapy in a month and feel better and more calm than I have since I started therapy. Therapy stresses me out. I don't feel any of my therapists believe me and like I'm trying to prove to them my issues are real. I agree with Alwayschanging2 in that therapy is where you do all the work. So far no therapist has told me anything I didn't already know. I'm doing all the work myself. I'm not sure if the stress of therapy is proof that, "things get worse before they get better." All I know is I'm happier without therapy!

[finding_my_way]

i have seen a psychiatrist for 10 years bu haven't done any actual 'work.' i guess i've naturally come back together (and fallen apart a lot along the way too) more on my own.

the only things it does for me really is give me a safeish place to talk and also having some things validated for me.

i haven't been ready or stable enough yet to do more in depth work, and i have no idea what it would even look like or what it would do to me.

as okay as i can be, i also can still struggle quite severe...so it is confusing to me how to still balance all of it. i have thought a lot over the years of not seeing the psychiatrist anymore, but i always go back to her since she has been the safest one out of any i've seen.

sometimes, taking a break from therapy is okay. not everyone responds the same to it. and you might also have times where you are ok and times you aren't too, so it really is your choice about what you feel you need and when you need it (or don't). it used to over load me years ago since i was seeing different people for different things, so that was also part of why it was hard for me. it's still not easy just seeing the psychiatrist, but it is my one connection still to someone who is understanding.