Inter switching talk

Some how some way I got so focused on the switching between alters because it's been discussed a lot lately, and I've realized that there is like a quick rundown for the on the spot switching.

Like 'Hes talking about this..." "We need directions..." "hey yu need to do this" "watch out!" "Everyones looking!..l" "what's our birth date?"

I've never ever in my life caught on to it now. It's that blip between switches. I've heard it, but....like wow. Just interesting stuff like it matters.

It's that thing like you wonder about but not important enough to remember???

It just hit me, the inter talking.

You too?

for me the switching process did not include what you call inter talking. heres what switching was like for me.....

I would be doing something, and I would start feeling I could not handle what ever the situation was. at that moment I would feel numb, spaced out, disconnected. basically I wasnt feeling anything. the next moment I would be aware again to discover I had completed what ever was stressing me out causing me to dissociate (feel numb, spaced out and disconnected) the in between me and an alter being in control was nothing, just quiet calm numbness of the dissociated state of mind I was in. I would find out after I was back in control what the alters said and did from others (my therapist, friends, family, co workers....)

I heard their voices and internal dialogue sometimes but at the moment of dissociation, because my dissociative symptoms was shutting down, shutting things out, numbing, that moment of switching from me to the alters was from my point of view my dissociative symptoms (numbness,the quiet calmness of dissociation.)

the voices for me were always there I cant remember a time when they were not there, i couldnt ignore or have a break from them in any way. my parents tell me that for years they thought I was Schizophrenic because I was always hearing the voices, telling my parents what the voices were saying and imitating the voices / engaging in activities and talking back tot he voices ....I remember this one time I was in school and a couple alters were debating inside my head and I wanted to hear the teacher. I yelled "would you just shut up you are going to get us in trouble." the teacher looked at me and said Problem? I told her someone was talking and i ended up wit missing recess because no physical person was talking, it was in my head and my teacher thought I was playing and telling lies instead of paying attention.

when integration happened it was such a confusing and scary thing because hearing the voices all the time and all the time knowing they were there, then the voices were not there any more after integration. my normal was gone and i had to learn a new normal of not having/hearing voices 24/7.

I do do that every now and then, but during moments of immediate switching, it seems like I'm always telling or asking for info.

I can't explain to well, it's like the sissing in between two people. I'm just kinda like noticing, that's all.