[earthangel1]

I was in a horrific plane accident that I don't remember well. I just know it killed my dad and brother and put my mom in a hospital for months because it sort of crushed her in her seat. The only thing I was told was that I was standing there like a hero helping my mom when the search workers came. Shortly after the plane crash, my older cousin took care of me and my brother who also survived the crash and he sexually abused us. I also, don't remember a lot of it. My brother will say things like, "do you remember the time Alex tried to drown you?" And I was like, "no." I also have a terrible memory and expanses of time I don't remember. One year on vacation to Florida, I was on the other side of town and had bought girls clothes and had no idea how I got them and how I got to the other side of town. I also hear the voice of Alex, who molested me, telling me to do things like kill animals or cut myself or kill myself. I also daydream alot about being this blonde girl named Racheal who I've never met. help.

I am so sorry for the things you have gone through.

[mpd-Rich]

Hello. I have alters myself and as male I would find strange things in my room. barrettes were most common. As a teenager I would find nail polish. I was diagnosed with MPD/DID at 14 I think, so I came to expect more things like this. Losing time and having things you don't remember are very common. I have been dealing with alters for many years now; if you have any questions or anything you'd like to talk about please know that I am available.

Best wishes,
Rich (and friends)

[Beowulf]

It certainly sounds like you have DID, and I am so sorry for all that you have gone through. Its okay to be confused with life and oneself after experiences like you have had. I understand, I have similar things with me. I have holes in my memory as well, and even now have trouble remembering basic things or concentrating for periods of time. I havent had a separate identity with a completely different name though. In my mind, I dont even have a name, i cant relate to my own name given to me. Mine are different personalities with different opinions, lifestyles, etc. Or at least i think. Maybe you should look into a therapist, so that maybe you could get some help in moving on. You definitely deserve to.

OMg I'm so sorry sweety for everythng that you've gone through, It all sounds so wrong.

Do you have a T to discuss this with? Someone that you can trust? We need someone that we can trust in, or we feel so lost.

Thank you for sharing with us, that's a step forward in the right direction. We luv you!