[Gemstone]

Sorry to everyone that knows me that I haven't been around. I haven't been doing well. I was in the hospital not long ago and now my t quit because she is having a baby. So I am t-less for know. The idea of finding someone new is too overwhelming.

I wasn't sure if I still belonged here or not. I don't know that I feel right at pc anymore, but that is just me I'm sure.

I try to stuff everything down, but I can only stuff everything down so far. I'm just so tired.

*Trigger*

I keep having a nightmare / flashback (Im not sure anymore) of my as a child with my mouth and hands taped. I an trying to scream but it is silenced. I can still hear the sound that comes out and see the tears fall. That child is still silenced even now.

On the outside I probably seem like everything is perfect. I am sucessful, Im in a happy marriage. But on the inside the children still scream and cry.

I'm not really sure how to move forward. Starting with a new t seems like it would be stepping back. I can't picture myself anywhere different that I am now.

((( Gem )))

Starting with a new t seems like it would be stepping back

No hon. It isn't. You can't go through this alone.

We can be here to support you and listen and give you hugs and empathy, but you need irl help.

I'm sorry Lisa is leaving but you need to forge forward for your own safety. The screaming children need to be heard.

You belong here. You are always welcome. You have been missed very much.

[(JD)]

[pegasus]

Gentle hugs (((((((((( Gemstone ))))))))))))

[nothemama8]

{{{{ Gem }}}}}
we're here when needed

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Gemstone)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Please consider finding another t. I know it is hard as I am having to do the same right now. Please take care.

yes, a t is definetly necessary... you shouldnt have to shoulder this all on your own
sending my love to all the colorul and sparkling gemstones.

[January]

((((((((( Gem )))))))))

Please find another t. You are not alone. We will all be here for you.

Hugs,

Jan

[ShadowsinTheDay]

I know what it's like to start off with a new T like every 3 months... I had 2 of them, and ya, it was hard, and annoying. But as long as you get a "long term T' and not a 'short term T 9The ones that work so many months, then move on cuz they are working towords tehre PHD or MD), You'll be ok once you get going. . Maybe you can rejoin your old T once she's working agin after the baby. .

ShadowsinTheDay

[allthegirls6]

we miss you

[Gemstone]

(((( All of you ))))

Thank you for listening. I see my psychiatrist later this week. I'm going to see if he can help me find a new t.

I am just hurting so bad lately. I feel so overwhlemed.

[ShadowsinTheDay]

ShadowsinTheDay

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( Gemstone )))))))))))))))

[fgh]

gem you are a gem here from what i see and i hope you get back real soon cuz others here miss you i dont print much but i read lots

all of you coping like me and the littles around
jj wants to know where the playground went

nona

Hi nona,

Please let jj know that some of her friends are scared to post, so the playground is quiet right now. I hope they come back soon though.

Petunia

[fgh]

yeah i get it too i see the trash talking bums here causing trouble and i aint in the mood for them i aint letting jj play here while they are out doing their bullcrapin stuff here who is lettin them do all that distressin crap i wanna know

sorry i aint in the mood for their stuff but thanks for telling me thats why everyones been so quiet and all just thought id get here and see and make a fdw posts and all but it aint worth the effort no more i would have liked to do some poetry stuff i'm good at T says but the trashthrowers on the board will just bother the bejesus out of me id throw them out myself into their own trash but i cant do that im not even real to them garbage i dont blame ya in the least it dont look too safe here what with all the bullcrap being slung around maybe i come back some other time i dont know

nona

Nona,

Post your poetry in the Creative Forum if you don't feel right in this forum. I would love to read it.

[kimmydawn]

nona,

if someone posts here and it's within guidelines but upsetting for you, place them on ignore. if you need help with that, PM me.

we need to make sure that posting isn't unsupportive to anyone reading.

thanks,

KD

[Gemstone]

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Gemstone ))))))))))))))

[Gemstone]

hi bear

from
allie

[ShadowsinTheDay]

Nona: Looks like your teh only "trash talker on this board." The rest of Us singulets are jsut trying to LEARN!

If that's waht you mean by trash talkers...
I'm also in a B*D mood , and I'm just trying to learn about things... No reason why your guys littles and Middels can't come out...

Course, if a Multiple Alter said this it would be differant wouldn't it? I'll probably get kicked for this, well an Alter would not, would they?... (Side note.)

ShadowsinTheDay

[Fuzzybear]

hi shadows,

I suggest you start a new thread if you wish to discuss that,

Thanks,
Fuzzy

(((( allie ))))

It's ok sweetie. They are not mad at you.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((( allie )))))))))