Last week, I brought in my alters to met my new T (as of Dec).. it was a swirl of upsetness and confusion... I still feel just so "so".. is th only word... does it always have to be so swirly? like being in a blender... the issue to be discussed was reaching a concensus on giving my adult son money... many different opinions, many different solutions

too much for me..

Does anyone experience this feeling or am I the only one?

[Evangelista]

no not the only one. When I started with my T the first time there was uphevel, like someone opened a crowded elevator door, everyone wanted to get out at once...sent me crashing.somatic responses, fog..there are echos and doors slams everyone has their way of coping inside out, sometimes feel just like a peice of wardrobe in a large closet.

Hope that the new T will work out okay freewill..good luck..

Thank you.... your way of describing it is really good....

I love my new T... it has been a long time since I was able to actually acknwledge my DID to a T.... my last one did not believe in DID,,,,,,so it is a relief to find someone that can actually help...

he's the the best...

[Crystal88]

My alters were going to therapy with me even before I knew they were there. It was my therapist that recognized that I have alters that made her suggest I get tested for mental disorders, and I came out of the testing diagnosed with having DID. The only thing I notice after switching is a headache. But I have noticed because my therapist has asked me to keep track of how I feel and tell her when I feel weird, that before switching I get a loud noise in my head and feel kind of like being on the upswing of a roller coster where everything looks far away and slow motioned.

Thank you for your reply.. I was diagnosised I don't 20 some years ago.. called it MPD... I stuck with that T for 10 years... then had a series of therapists where I didn't acknowledge my DX... then my last T that I was with told me that there was no such thing as DID or MPD. I had gone down from around 17 to my current... had co-consiousness.. I think is the term.. thought OK this is good..
This new T recognized the DX,,, and I have formally introduced him - but it really makes me physically ill and I am not sure why... if it is just that I have an eating disorder too and my asthma is really kicking up a storm. So I am just really over all feeling so sick. I'm not sure... I just feel pretty terrible.

[Crystal88]

Hope you are feeling better today

[mlyn]

If you are talking of the many opinions, no you are not the only one to experiance that.
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Thank you all ... again... different opinions yes that is true, I was feeling better then I went to therapy today... and there was some discussion of going to fast by T and me

.... then (I really hate that I did this), I stopped at store got binge food - cake, candy bars and pop and ate until I passed out... (my eating disorder got outta control)... so now my IBS hurts, my head feels terrible and I am so mad at me for doing this again...
One of these days, I'm not going to wake up...

I'm sorry for being such a big whiner. And I'm sure that everyone will say that I brought it on myself cause I did..
We went thru some horrible memories today - it just never goes away....and one of these days, I'll stop punishing myself..