It's not very often that we are all seeing things on the same level. For the most part, it's like everyone for themselves. We may work together, but we sure don't hang together. It gets lonely at times. I'm lonely. Even real life family members have separated from me because of the instability. Even the 2 chihuahuas seek out the other members. It's me and you, even this is grinding to a halt.

The others don't care....some do. Life changes are scary because we change. We've always hated change, but embrace it when it happens. The way things are....we are ready for a life change....no matter what again.

Anyways....we got side tracked...are you your best friend?

I wouldnt say we are best friends, but we do keep each other company. It is sort of rare for us to feel lonely. If we ever do, its because all of our family and our T all live far away from us, and we miss their company.

That's kewl. I don't need nobody.

Awww, yes we do. It gets hard being lonely with out other human contact. A hand shake, hug, kiss (I can so wish...soon maybe?).

We try working together. We sorta like each other...but most of us try to get along. Then there are those that are like think that they are all that. Get real.

Sounds like you''re having one hell of a roller coaster evening ((((AlwaysChanging2))))

Most of the time I keep myself company in a real low level kind of a way. But occasionally, it all kind of comes together to produce comic genius, and I'll end up peeing myself laughing. I like those moments - I wish all my internal conversations were that funny all the time.

not me.

wouldn't be very good at it- though i did used to try and make some sort of a soap opera with the others (because it gave us something to do), and gave us interesting situations to think about, but it never really worked out- and natalie (our protector) had the final word on the whole thing. totally putting it at an end

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Keeping company?? I'd say yes and no. Yes because of the strange way things seem lately. But everyone isn't always supportive or fun to be with or interested in being here its just is. No in the sense that when on e calls on others no support or help is offered. Maybe it's come and go as you see fit ...lol ....

[Shaly78]

Definitely, keep yourself company....I try to view it as that now, because let me figure us out as far as roles came to screeching halt because their seem to be some back lash inside. I stopped that and just started to hang in other ways, just like friends instead of putting a sense of urgency on who's job it is in my system. I figures that will come with time. One thing, that is really hurtful for those in my system that we're apart of my life that really hurt me, I don't really like speaking to them because it was hard to get my head around the memory of that person. I feel a whole lot better about this now ,so I kind of make myself talk to those ones that make it difficult and now I can tolerate them. I don't let the hurtful memories define with inner them is in my system, although sometimes you have to make sure you reframe those ways, so that they are not used on someone with you realizing it.

[Shaly78]

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I don't need anybody! Very true, but during healing I've learned that relationship problems is apart of post traumatic stress disorder. I talked about that in session and I now realize that I can let the guard some and trust. Then again at the same time having post traumatic stress disorder and dissociative identity disorder makes it hard to relate to just anybody, but there is always a chance for the awkwardness their identity might be swiped which makes it worst. Also, the fact that we might trust too easily opening ourselves up for more hurt. I have these over protective people who claim their care, but make it especially difficult with their tactics to make sure I stay lonely. There are times when I just need to be around someone though even if not directly interacting with them. An outing making sure I make conversation with someone, if it is only to ask about a product in the store with a store clerk. That is not all the time though, just when I feel really lonely. I like group therapy, chat rooms, dating websites etc. that is helpful to not feel very lonely. Dating is really complicated for me right now also. Then there is the struggle within some alter got their favorites some don't want you in to that lifestyle so they are so opinionated that it makes it really hard to be sure of yourself. Then I realized that it is okay to please this one alter for now, although I don't get in the habit of doing so.