Is that weird or what? When I try to recall a memory of an event that I know that we have experienced, like we went to a DBT class, trying to remember the details produces waves of nausea to the point of getting ill so much that I quit trying.

I can see a part of a memory that's far away, in still life and splitting up into and out of focus in the primary colors of red, yellow, blue? against a black background. This isn't normal I take it.

Anyone else have adverse physical reactions to anything having to do with memory recall?

Thanx.

[Gr3tta]

Ive recalled memories that made me physically ill.

Me 2. I think I strain my brain or an other just won't give it up on purpose, but I feel it's the latter a lot.

[finding_my_way]

this year, i had a very physical reaction. it started with a trigger that made me almost physically sick..my stomach hurt, i couldn't breathe, and then i had this image come into my head...but around it was like white or black...it was not like any memory i had ever had where it was the full picture...it was almost like a mix of a dream and daydream...i still have no idea if it was real or not...

i can remember that particular stomach ache when i was a child, but i have no memory of when or why. that made it even more scary and was like a whole bunch of triggers at once. it made me dissociate very bad..and then my head was trying to piece it all together...and i don't know if what was in my head was just my head trying to make sense of the physical reaction or what was going on.

[flockpride]

There's trying to remember something and then there's the thing that won't let you forget it. The second one of those is usually the sick maker!

If I can't remember something, now I let that go trusting that if I really need to remember, it will come to me later and usually at the right time for dealing with it.

For me, learning to trust my system (and therapist) is the foundation for other aspects of healing going well.

Oh dear, how true. The far past and forbidden ones I leave alone!

I really meant recent past memories like what I did yesterday or last week. It's like trying to remember an others memory (forcing) makes me sick because it feels like I'm tapping into their essence and they are resisting causing extreme nausea that I quit trying.

It's so gross.

[flockpride]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Oh dear, how true. The far past and forbidden ones I leave alone!

I really meant recent past memories like what I did yesterday or last week. It's like trying to remember an others memory (forcing) makes me sick because it feels like I'm tapping into their essence and they are resisting causing extreme nausea that I quit trying.

It's so gross.

Oh! I know that situation. I go inside to find things. I have to close my eyes and completely stop what I'm doing and then listen hard. often I get the information. there isn't resistance about giving me every day stuff. but it's obvious when I don't know it and another part does.

I spend most of every day on a scale of 'slightly nauseous' to 'puking my guts out'. I never made the connection between that and memories before, although I was very aware this was a somatic symptom. This thread is making me think.