The switching co-conscience

Do you ever have an epiphany, like a universal truth was just realized that you just couldn't understand or grasp for the longest, being blind to the obvious? Then to just have it melt all over you or sink in the moment your eyes were opened to the answer staring right at you in the face? Sure you do, I just did, too.

It just dawned on that of which we have been really trying to figure this out (chiefly me) for the past months as to what the true meaning of co-conscience is as it's related to our system. It has hit home as to how we tick! It all now makes sense...at least for now it does, that might change in a minute when something happens like usual to dissuade me, but for now, I'm enlightened.

Let me describe...

Some of us share the forward conscience, we can think talk to each other. I can observe as another is up front. I can even participate through the other. This is our central conscience (or room) where we collaborate and which is always present. The "light's always on" effect is NOT the mind of a single other like I kept thinking (who!?!!), it's ALL of our conscience minds joined that we are logged into to operate life. Others do silently come and go, quietly performing their job. This is like the bridge of a ship and we others is a rotating crew.

I've uttered this concept so many times, but it truly didn't sink in like it just did this morning, that's why now I'm "tripping" on it! Lol

Of course our memory is shot, because we don't always watch everything that each other does. Because of this observable action, we are able to stay in sync to appear as a singular. During operating hours (like business hours), all hands on deck.

Everyone is an alter, no one part is more than an other. Our life path is just a bouncing off the "life walls" as we go, no real direction, handling the present as it comes with no real future plans, taking it as we go. This is important to know...no one really leads the way, it's just moments of inspiration and luck.

Since we came out of pretend denial and recentered our focus on ourselves 6 months ago, things that we have felt and ignored are finally being recognized for what they are. For 30 years we vowed to never look in, to stay outwardly focused to not discover what we are discovering now in this short time. I guess you can say that we were "superficial"?

We always have had the tv or radio on to drown out the head noise, or try to stay focused on our thoughts that we ignored the others, but this morning I sat here sipping coffee in silence, listening to two others (without any mental effort from me) talk about how they weren't going to go back in and keep quiet now that we've let go because the topic was getting our life heading in a profitable direction and who's going to take charge. Then I felt the conscience shift to another as I stepped back and watched them watching me "be" and then me back to the front...then bam...epiphany.

It's this "switching conscience" action that clued me in, much like a viewfinder toy switching frames. I really don't know what I'm getting too, but that's what's been bugging me. I don't know exactly how it works, but I'm close enough to the truth that I'm momentarily satisfied. To get any closer to the exact operations of a multiples mind, I'd have to start taking courses in Neurobiology....nah. Lol

So as usual, I'm stating the obvious, but I'm happy and excited to REALLY know what I knew.

Now maybe we can get on with living? Luv.

Hey thanks...I went and changed it. I didn't realize because I was tripping! Thanks for proofreading.

answer to your first paragraph question.....the only time this happened to me was when an alter integrated\became one \merged together with me. everything they were became me, so that opened the door to knowing more things, being able to understand more,

the rest or your post that you call "switching Conscious" my location calls being co conscious. (being aware that the others exist, being able to talk/converse with each other, participating with each each other, hearing the noises and chatter of the others....)

the feeling of switching from me to those I was aware off and then back to me like you describe my location calls the "revolving door" which also happened to me frequently as my alter prepared to integrate with me\become one whole person again...

but if I actually saw an alter like you would see a friend sitting across from you my treatment providers would call this a psychotic reaction, and usually an adjustment of my medications would solve the psychotic symptoms.

I cant diagnose but hazarding a ...guess....many of your more recent posts including this one seems to be pointing towards the possibility that you and your internal system are becoming one whole person again (integrating), only your treatment providers can tell you for sure if thats whats happening.

but regardless of why this is happening for you... may I say Im happy for being able to read about your journey and all the positive progress you are making.

I love reading posts on here where progress is being made. kind of lets readers know there is sunshine at the end of the hard work. Especially when i know someone who happens to be stuck in the moment and I feel bad for them then come on here and read the positive posts.

keep up the great work you are doing. happy for you.

Thanks, I don't.....just more aware of everything. If we blow up and join, that will be nice. The seeing the other, that doesn't happen. I can tell when an other present and I "step back", it's like...a switch in focus? It's so hard to describe. At least I can put words to how we have always operated. If this leads to healing, great! If not, oh well.

We as a whole feel much more free and at ease without the anxiety of not knowing and fighting ourself, tearing my hair out and asking why(?)! Lol.

Wow....okay....interesting.

I always thought they were duh moments. This has happened many times before, like when their seemed to be a wall to understanding, like trying to learn and solve an algebraic math equation and not getting it, then to have it sink in weeks later long after having failed the math test. Or is this different (been decades since we took a math test!)? Hmmmm...