Stuck in a missing memory hole

I'm beginning to notice that we are really missing memories bad. Time is disappearing and jumping to the point that I've no idea what I've done all day. I was mad last night that everything we were suppose to do- even made a "to do" list the night before that didn't get done. -_-

I've never really ever took notice of these anomalies in the time line before as "missing time", but getting stuff done like getting to work is imperative which makes it obvious. This amounts to more than just being distracted. An other presents and farts off (my view) and nothing gets done...sometimes who, what, or when eludes me. It ends up dark when I'm ready to go.

This morning we were hung up on writing and rewriting a blog page from 8-11:30. I finally took a shower shortly ago. And by my bad, here I am beeching on here.

Gotta go, though I'd say.

A weird moment was when I was driving I had a couple frito chips, closed and clipped the bag putting it away, and then quit because I didn't want to calorie up. Moments later, I find myself munching on chips. Wtf? Stuff like that makes me feel crazy.

usually when this happened to me my treatment providers and I looked at what was going on in my life right then. short version dissociation is a reaction to a trigger, there fore when my dissociation problems increased even though i was in therapy it meant I was triggered by something. my treatment provider would remind me to use my tools i have learned, (grounding, breathing, relaxing.....) and then deal with what ever was going on. that usually helped. if it didnt help it usually meant it wasnt a dissociative problem in me and we would take a look at my medications, and other issues that can cause dissociative like problems.

my suggestion contact your treatment provider, they will be able to help you figure out why suddenly you are having more dissociative like symptoms and help you to re ground yourself and feel better.

Life is a trigger. Lots of stress right now, holidays, money, bills, even this stupid thinking is a trigger. A perpetual state of crap.

To diss means to escape. Anyone living like this would do the same, At least that's how I got it figured. The others don't help, just make things worse. So here I am to fixit. Call me Mr Fixit because that's what I do.

Lol, Mr Fixit got rejected....he couldn't fix it! The X shot him down in flames! Lol

One other minus that comes to mind is that we are very sensitive, touchy, edgy, nervous, we spook easily, startle, nervy,...