[scar12346]

Well I just got diagnosed with bipolar, to which I think was unfair. I do have depressive episodes.. but instead of mania I get psychotic episodes. Which from what I understood (because I posted a thread in the Bipolar forum) is kind of like mania.
I do think things were kind of rushed. Because of my episodes are getting harder and harder to live with I had to get prescribed something and in here for you to be prescribed something "heavy duty" you need a referral to a special psychiatrist and your gp and you need a diagnosis. So I guess I just got a diagnosis that is closer to me.. but not really it. Also this is the only medicine I can take because I am under age (Abilify I think it was called, not completely sure though) .
I also am worried because I cannot start taking the med this month because I have to go to Italy for a choir tour and they cannot monitor me that way. So basically I was given a ticket to getting my life controlled! How I am going to live off that month? I don't know.. but I guess I have to!

Also update on my crazy psychologist, she just told me that my DID is all in my head (duh..) and that I imagine to have other people around me because I am lonely, and that I need to tune them out.. does she even realize that if I do do something to "tune them out" I will basically be an empty shell and I will fall into a deep depression? Also she completely ignore me having a complete meltdown because a voice wouldn't stop yelling at me for being worthless, and that I continue saying that there is a hanging man on a tree that was screaming for help.. She continue talking about DID even after I asked her to stop because she is not helping and DID is not my damn problem. -Scar
And the whole part of the crazy Russian church woman (as we called her) is that she keeps reminding Scar that if it is not for us he is alone and cannot function on his own. Which knowing Scar's meltdown last night, definitely does not help.. not one bit. Do you know what it's like having anger issues and hearing someone telling you that you are not there and you are just part of someone's imagination (which keep in mind the original is not even here anymore so yeah..) and you cannot do anything because the psych ward is right outside and they cannot just lock one of us in? Ahhh #Multiple Problems.. -Waidth

[Shaly78]

I say do what the crazy psychologist says to do. It sounds like she says it is all in the head, aka you have a inner world, tune them out talk to your psychologist she or he needs to know more. You all are desperate to communicate aka lonely . I would say journal and bring to session. If you don't want to lose everything tune them out especially if your aren't disabled tend to agree. As far as imaginary, some people wait until the inner world communication is made with kids before diagnosing. I guess your going to have to wait it out. Empty shell I'm not sure if that means you when take the vitals later and miss something, who is the say they offering everything right away, age, sex, gender, when created, why, when emerged, preference /role. Yea, you don't want too get them mistrustful so try not to get too angry just yet and trust the process. Stay up on the research. Careful for you wish for you will start overly switching soon with that come pain though and make sure you have research to seek the DID dx that might sense just cause they like to know you know your stuff.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by scar12346

Well I just got diagnosed with bipolar, to which I think was unfair. I do have depressive episodes.. but instead of mania I get psychotic episodes. Which from what I understood (because I posted a thread in the Bipolar forum) is kind of like mania.
I do think things were kind of rushed. Because of my episodes are getting harder and harder to live with I had to get prescribed something and in here for you to be prescribed something "heavy duty" you need a referral to a special psychiatrist and your gp and you need a diagnosis. So I guess I just got a diagnosis that is closer to me.. but not really it. Also this is the only medicine I can take because I am under age (Abilify I think it was called, not completely sure though) .
I also am worried because I cannot start taking the med this month because I have to go to Italy for a choir tour and they cannot monitor me that way. So basically I was given a ticket to getting my life controlled! How I am going to live off that month? I don't know.. but I guess I have to!

Also update on my crazy psychologist, she just told me that my DID is all in my head (duh..) and that I imagine to have other people around me because I am lonely, and that I need to tune them out.. does she even realize that if I do do something to "tune them out" I will basically be an empty shell and I will fall into a deep depression? Also she completely ignore me having a complete meltdown because a voice wouldn't stop yelling at me for being worthless, and that I continue saying that there is a hanging man on a tree that was screaming for help.. She continue talking about DID even after I asked her to stop because she is not helping and DID is not my damn problem. -Scar
And the whole part of the crazy Russian church woman (as we called her) is that she keeps reminding Scar that if it is not for us he is alone and cannot function on his own. Which knowing Scar's meltdown last night, definitely does not help.. not one bit. Do you know what it's like having anger issues and hearing someone telling you that you are not there and you are just part of someone's imagination (which keep in mind the original is not even here anymore so yeah..) and you cannot do anything because the psych ward is right outside and they cannot just lock one of us in? Ahhh #Multiple Problems.. -Waidth

I wonder if you can monitor your own meds while traveling in italy. i know many teens aged 15-17 that are able to travel with medication to other countries as long as the medication is in its original containers marked clearly who the medication is for, dosage and prescribing doctor. in fact when one of the churches here traveled to Italy\rome to see the pope there was many teens on all kinds of medications. they had no problems entering Italy's airports. and while there the teens on meds monitored their self (they took their meds on time and carried their own meds in their own luggage....and all that entailed taking care of their own medicine and medicinal needs) they started on the meds before leaving so that their own treatment providers could have follow up appointments before they left to make sure there was no problems with taking that medication.

my point maybe if you start your meds now it will calm things down a bit on the psychotic problems. and your doctors can have a follow up appointment for you before you have to leave. they can write out a schedule of when you need to take the meds and give you a statement to carry along with you while you are in italy showing medical \mental need for it. then you wont need anyone else to monitor your meds while in Italy, other than a teacher checking in with you to make sure you took the meds on time.

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

I wonder if you can monitor your own meds while traveling in italy. i know many teens aged 15-17 that are able to travel with medication to other countries as long as the medication is in its original containers marked clearly who the medication is for, dosage and prescribing doctor. in fact when one of the churches here traveled to Italy\rome to see the pope there was many teens on all kinds of medications. they had no problems entering Italy's airports. and while there the teens on meds monitored their self (they took their meds on time and carried their own meds in their own luggage....and all that entailed taking care of their own medicine and medicinal needs) they started on the meds before leaving so that their own treatment providers could have follow up appointments before they left to make sure there was no problems with taking that medication.

my point maybe if you start your meds now it will calm things down a bit on the psychotic problems. and your doctors can have a follow up appointment for you before you have to leave. they can write out a schedule of when you need to take the meds and give you a statement to carry along with you while you are in italy showing medical \mental need for it. then you wont need anyone else to monitor your meds while in Italy, other than a teacher checking in with you to make sure you took the meds on time.

I am a drug abuser. I am not hiding nor will I lie, I am addicted to any type of drug. Just knowing that I will have a medicine with me that is not just a migraine medicine or other type of small and "normal" medicine will get me to over-dose. I know myself very well. Even now while I am on Atarax I cannot have it with me. My mam has it. I had the box with me just one day, and this one day I drank about 3 or 4 pills while I am supposed to drink 1 in the night and 1/2 in the morning.. I cannot have any type of drug with me and be left alone with it. Plus because this will be my official medicine for a while and it is my first (again without Atarax) and because the diagnosis is not a final I think it would be good having some kind of doctor to watch over me.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

UGH! Travel, teens, and meds...Oh My! That can certainly be a recipe for disaster. ... As far as the Dxes are concerned try not to get too worked up over them. Until the researchers elite and insurance companies figure out a way to make fMRIs and expansive genome testing cost efficient and not to mention all the political red tape with big pharma+ a serious change in societal views that MI IS A SERIOUS PHYSICAL ILLNESS!!! grrr... the pdocs kinda have to continue poking around blindfolded. It's mainly onservation, trial and error to the best of their ability... So they ideally do the best they can to treat whatever the most urgent and consistently reccurant symptoms that are presented. And over the yrs, their maybe added, subtracted, working, comorid, and differential does that you are informed of. For instance I believe we currently hold 6? dxes. Most of them at one point or another was the main dx for which we spent lots of therapy and many many med changes +other treatments trying to find some solidity functionality workable baseline... dealing with each disorder one,at a time in therapy has done some good, but meds have always been a DISASTER! Either not tolerated, allerigic, complete opposite effects, or disappointing when a med or treatment worked for a bit, but then stopped working entirely even with every imaginable augmentation or took a sudden turn for the absolute worst! Srry got off track with all that TMI.... now I'm completely lost as to what I was trying to say.... if it come back around later I'll post it.

[likewater]

Originally Posted by scar12346

Well I just got diagnosed with bipolar, to which I think was unfair. I do have depressive episodes.. but instead of mania I get psychotic episodes. Which from what I understood (because I posted a thread in the Bipolar forum) is kind of like mania.
I do think things were kind of rushed. Because of my episodes are getting harder and harder to live with I had to get prescribed something and in here for you to be prescribed something "heavy duty" you need a referral to a special psychiatrist and your gp and you need a diagnosis. So I guess I just got a diagnosis that is closer to me.. but not really it. Also this is the only medicine I can take because I am under age (Abilify I think it was called, not completely sure though) .
I also am worried because I cannot start taking the med this month because I have to go to Italy for a choir tour and they cannot monitor me that way. So basically I was given a ticket to getting my life controlled! How I am going to live off that month? I don't know.. but I guess I have to!

Also update on my crazy psychologist, she just told me that my DID is all in my head (duh..) and that I imagine to have other people around me because I am lonely, and that I need to tune them out.. does she even realize that if I do do something to "tune them out" I will basically be an empty shell and I will fall into a deep depression? Also she completely ignore me having a complete meltdown because a voice wouldn't stop yelling at me for being worthless, and that I continue saying that there is a hanging man on a tree that was screaming for help.. She continue talking about DID even after I asked her to stop because she is not helping and DID is not my damn problem. -Scar
And the whole part of the crazy Russian church woman (as we called her) is that she keeps reminding Scar that if it is not for us he is alone and cannot function on his own. Which knowing Scar's meltdown last night, definitely does not help.. not one bit. Do you know what it's like having anger issues and hearing someone telling you that you are not there and you are just part of someone's imagination (which keep in mind the original is not even here anymore so yeah..) and you cannot do anything because the psych ward is right outside and they cannot just lock one of us in? Ahhh #Multiple Problems.. -Waidth

I've been misdiagnosed before as schizophrenic. Many don't believe DID exists. I do much better talking to someone that believes me.

Originally Posted by scar12346

I am a drug abuser. I am not hiding nor will I lie, I am addicted to any type of drug. Just knowing that I will have a medicine with me that is not just a migraine medicine or other type of small and "normal" medicine will get me to over-dose. I know myself very well. Even now while I am on Atarax I cannot have it with me. My mam has it. I had the box with me just one day, and this one day I drank about 3 or 4 pills while I am supposed to drink 1 in the night and 1/2 in the morning.. I cannot have any type of drug with me and be left alone with it. Plus because this will be my official medicine for a while and it is my first (again without Atarax) and because the diagnosis is not a final I think it would be good having some kind of doctor to watch over me.

Believe me, nobody wants to abuse Abilify. I can't take it...it gives me brain zaps (all antipsychotics do) and knocks me out wth headaches. They dont do anything much because I'm not psychotic. I know my inner voices are the Others.

I started getting treated for bipolar and am taking meds to stop the mood swings. To get the physical mind under control is a plus for recovering from m.i.

I don't see why they don't just start you on a.p.'s? They prescribed me and said check back in in a month! Lol

I wish you luck and I hope that you have fun on tour!

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Believe me, nobody wants to abuse Abilify. I can't take it...it gives me brain zaps (all antipsychotics do) and knocks me out wth headaches. They dont do anything much because I'm not psychotic. I know my inner voices are the Others.

I started getting treated for bipolar and am taking meds to stop the mood swings. To get the physical mind under control is a plus for recovering from m.i.

I don't see why they don't just start you on a.p.'s? They prescribed me and said check back in in a month! Lol

I wish you luck and I hope that you have fun on tour!

Even if I do not abuse it, I probably will overdose. Especially if I start drinking it while having a depressive episode, 2 days of this thing not working will be enough for it to push me down. Same happened with Atarax.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by scar12346

Even if I do not abuse it, I probably will overdose. Especially if I start drinking it while having a depressive episode, 2 days of this thing not working will be enough for it to push me down. Same happened with Atarax.

just a heads up abilify comes in injections too. you go in to the doctor or psychiatrist and they give one shot every 4 weeks (once a month), you cant abuse or over dose on it because you have to go in to the doctor\psychiatrist to put the shot in either your arm or behind (choice of which is up to the person receiving the shot.

[krazy_phoenix]

Thanks for that info on Abilify Amanda. Will ask if i can get injection instead. Ta.