[Shaly78]

Gravitate, a secret following sends folks who not by choice carry messages/reminders usually in a few sentences phrase keys words that are wrought with clues about us. Alters get out way more due to these messages I feel over blown with emotion afterwards out of shear mental exhaustion, feeling mentally undressed, a lot of times into anxiety and panic attacks. The subjects discussed have already been given full attention full emotion cry about, so now this fullness seems really for no reasons. So to me, it is out of frustration more of the same why is it this way, well I'm full of words we are as a team . Poor alters all they know now to do is apologize and uplift now, and are just plain puzzled and out of reasons why this vendetta is against the system. We are starting to realize it is a calculated scheme that is systemic evil to serve an agenda except there is no perspective person or no high up priest that i can beg it to stop....The culprits got me lost I ended the relationship a long time ago except with every fiber of my being knowing they are still bullying us alters. The only thing I know to do is restrict us for any and everything involving any extra curricular, basically no more than necessary. Guess what though, yesterday was more of a extreme interaction, it is like that with anything we do nowadays....Grocer store, just anywhere some directly some indirectly like they are alone side us with the psychic aiding their cause. A double whammy indeed, I have never really been this suspicious of society....The Facebook talk has ceased since I'm not on there anymore. The world knows I am on there, and in fact tried this already was off Facebook for a few months with the same person to person and indirect interactions that let me know this is someone's doing just not sure how.

Basically, there is not way the brain can process the bolis of information to stop each alter and follow what is said in conversation to stop their experiences from being out, so it always seems like I'm giving too much of us...I'm not talking a mile per minute either. Slowing up helps, but still not really want I need to do normally in all cases. Does any one else experience this? What do you do change yourself, reframe yourselves and ask people to reframe certain things for the sake of the relationship. Do you go to all out explanation just so the excuse is validated ? Do you worry about being exploited cause you experience the previous sentence and how that back fired into sticky situations with someone embarrassing you are making assumption about a something they read or movie to debunk we are not the same way. Do you revert back to all out secrecy and just anything before dx then deal with any repercussions as necessary? Ignore the, oh you already know me feeling lol. Keeping in mind, whisper to everyone now already with this example we have to deal with this in this way, and communicating all of that with alters involved...A constant shift of how to handle, how to deal, then re writing the communication to supersede the old in the new situation...

[Luce]

Hi Shaly. I don't know how to respond to your post, as I am not sure I understand what you are saying. Are you talking about outsiders triggering internal people? Or alters letting out more information about the system than you are comfortable with?

[Shaly78]

Yes, outsider trigging internal people. What do you think about us as interesting people? Do you see that as a confidence boost or like curse slow to speak in that I need my alone time, I don't need to appease everyone in the system, or just coping as child with making people using dissociation...I was wondering about the research but was also sharing how people are drawn to meet with ulterior motive. Apart of this stems from my trauma past with a T who uses people to trigger intentionally so that I learn who handles what in certain situation an there is no law to sue cause I've over turned this town trying to find out how. I was looking to know if that might be part of the reason.. Well at any rate I guest I can use to elevate my burgeoning self esteem and not worry about it. I just wonder if you guys here, my friends, have read the same research and wondered what you thought about.

I personally can't see anyone wanting to hook up with this giant bowl of fruit loops.... Much less would I desire to inflict anyone with our crazee.

Anyone drawn to Multiples must be in a twist themselves.

[Shaly78]

lol I agree!

[likewater]

[QUOTE=AlwaysChanging2;5043969]I personally can't see anyone wanting to hook up with this giant bowl of fruit loops.... Much less would I desire to inflict anyone with our crazee.

Anyone drawn to Multiples must be in a twist themselves.[/QUOTE
Some people like fruit loops. My brain often feels like scrambled eggs and my boyfriend truly loves me. Miracles can happen. We've been together over 10 years. He's awesome. Don't sell yourself short.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

Did you find him online tho? I think Shaly is talkin about creepers who troll sites to prey on ppl they think are subseptable to their bs.