never mind.

[pegasus]

You ok?

(((((((((( freewill ))))))))))

grrrrrrrrrrr to DID... ever ask yourself why this route to protect yourself,, why not some other route??? ever think the world will understand.... ever think of just chucking it in since is is so very very complicated other people do not understand.. just cause they can't... ever want the missing moments back... but then you don't.. because ya just do not want to know .. what you know??

I am who I am but who I am is not me, so who is me.. when I am who I am??

anyone with DID should understanfd the above question...

just so very very very tired..

so should I just chuck it? forever and ever.... and ever???

we remember asking some of the same questions----each of us---
we are coming to realize that we are who we are. each a part of the whole with just as much importance as the other.
why this way to protect self??? don't know. but as we continue on this journey we are beginning to appreciate what each did for "self" so self wouldn't die.

some inside would agree with chucking it--
i don't. i think that taking your time to get to know each part, to give them a voice and let them say what has been soooo locked up for so long is a step to appreciating the whole.

i don't know how long you have been working on this or if you have a T, but the journey is rough and difficult and painful. why take it??? because for us it is what we need to do now for us.

i'm rambling, which is much of what i do. but i'm sitting with you as you ponder and take contemplate the next step.
Prism

[InACorner]

if i may be so bold perhaps i could throw out my theory perhaps that should help alittle with the really great statement im sure we all think about ....

i think of DID ...as like a family (that you love of course) ....you have yourself...and you have the others....whether they are boys or girls...old or young...even aliens and birds....you can say...i am a part of my family...these are the others in my family....meet the others in family....this is (your little's name) ....and then there is you....the host....and sorta....who you are is you...because your family is a part of you correct? Like your last name....it resembles your family...not just you as the indiviudal...but you as a whole family unit....i dont know if im confusing you or not...or maybe my idea is like in way left field (i was always hitting foul balls in baseball for gym class lol) and maybe im just rambling on and on....but you can say it is you....and a part of you...is a part of your family....

either way...your all my friends hehe (hope that wasnt out of line or made you feel uncomfortable)

(((((((((((safe hugs to you))))))))))))))

love, inny

[RACEKA]

That's exactly how I think of it. We are all a family. This is a better family than my biological family. The family in my head understands, my biological family doesn't. I don't even talk to my biological family about my mental health. They don't know about my other family. I'm much closer to my DID family.

Take care all.

Thank you all... I have been having such a tough time lately.. you know how it is.. sometimes there is a tough time right before another long stretch of good time..

I am so thankful for one and all here at PC, that listen to my pain, anger, hurt... that celebrate the good things, that offer their help to me...
you have no idea what it means to me..

[InACorner]

we will be here for us you need us....we are your friends (((((((((((freewill))))))))))