[L.P.]

This is somethin i been workin on and i wanna talk about it here ok?

I been growin up. I usta be real little and now im not so real litte but im still a kid. Thats weird but its ok to me i thinnk. Sometimes its ok sometimes its not. Today its ok. Thats what i mean. Its ok now.

My system is diffrent groups. We always been diffrent groups as long as i can remember and i remember back when i was a real for real kid and that was a long long time ago. The group we are now is me and my two sisters and the one whos doin the most host things. Then we got another guy but hes a adult like the host one is. My sisters are soometimes teenagers and sometimes kids.

We got a name we gave to the group of us here now. We disaster squad clean up crew Once all of us got settled bein the new group doin life we all seen how we all was real good at gettin back on track. But me i didnt do lots at the start cuz i was to little to be helpful. Now im bein more helpful and i dont know how to keep bein helpful. I think i know what the hard work is that i gotta do but im scared to do that. I think i wanna practice bein more helpful first so when i get mad sad scared then i can use my logic brain to remind me that i do good things to.

I never had to be disaster squad clean up crew for myslf before. Thats one of the hardest ppart for me about growin up is bein acountable for myself. I never done that before cuz id fix stuff for other ones then theyd fix stuff for me when i messed up and got in troube. I never had to think about me cuz i was busy thinkin bout other stuff and how to do what i hadta do so not to get found out. It was real important back when i was a real for real kid to not get found out and make people think everything was a ok. I know howta pretend real good. Im not real good at sayin whats not a ok.

Thats me startin. Sayin sometimes everythings not ok and i dont know hhowta clean up the me disaster.

'it's okay not to be okay sometimes.

we're currently suicidal and really struggling in life- that's okay (it's not nice, it's not pleasant, but it's okay)

all we're trying to say is things happen, and that's okay.

we all make mistakes, we all feel down at times- Living with mental illness can be very hard indeed, and when things are not okay (or even if they are), it's okay to post here and let us know about them

btw, we're glad you have a name!. we thought we were the only ones here who actually have a name for ourselves

so, from 1 system to another....

hello from system atlantis. it's nice to meet all of you

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by L.P.

This is somethin i been workin on and i wanna talk about it here ok?

I been growin up. I usta be real little and now im not so real litte but im still a kid. Thats weird but its ok to me i thinnk. Sometimes its ok sometimes its not. Today its ok. Thats what i mean. Its ok now.

My system is diffrent groups. We always been diffrent groups as long as i can remember and i remember back when i was a real for real kid and that was a long long time ago. The group we are now is me and my two sisters and the one whos doin the most host things. Then we got another guy but hes a adult like the host one is. My sisters are soometimes teenagers and sometimes kids.

We got a name we gave to the group of us here now. We disaster squad clean up crew Once all of us got settled bein the new group doin life we all seen how we all was real good at gettin back on track. But me i didnt do lots at the start cuz i was to little to be helpful. Now im bein more helpful and i dont know how to keep bein helpful. I think i know what the hard work is that i gotta do but im scared to do that. I think i wanna practice bein more helpful first so when i get mad sad scared then i can use my logic brain to remind me that i do good things to.

I never had to be disaster squad clean up crew for myslf before. Thats one of the hardest ppart for me about growin up is bein acountable for myself. I never done that before cuz id fix stuff for other ones then theyd fix stuff for me when i messed up and got in troube. I never had to think about me cuz i was busy thinkin bout other stuff and how to do what i hadta do so not to get found out. It was real important back when i was a real for real kid to not get found out and make people think everything was a ok. I know howta pretend real good. Im not real good at sayin whats not a ok.

Thats me startin. Sayin sometimes everythings not ok and i dont know hhowta clean up the me disaster.

thanks for sharing what you all are like, what you all do, here in my location this is called sense of agency. you can read more about this and about my sense of agency and others sense of agency in the link at the bottom of my post.

your post yes sometimes growing up is hard. I know someone who had littles who were afraid because they were growing up but then they realized that their old jobs were not needed any more like one little's job was to just be little sucking their thumb for comfort, but then there was no reason to sit and sick their thumb any more. by growing up they realized they could do more things then just sit and such a thumb, they could color, play and take walks. then they grewup some more and could do things like go shopping, have a pet... the more they grew the more things they got to be able to do. yea growing up is hard but I think you might just like it getting bigger and doing more things. the one that I know loves the growing up stuff now.

[L.P.]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

'it's okay not to be okay sometimes.

we're currently suicidal and really struggling in life- that's okay (it's not nice, it's not pleasant, but it's okay)

all we're trying to say is things happen, and that's okay.

we all make mistakes, we all feel down at times- Living with mental illness can be very hard indeed, and when things are not okay (or even if they are), it's okay to post here and let us know about them

btw, we're glad you have a name!. we thought we were the only ones here who actually have a name for ourselves

so, from 1 system to another....

hello from system atlantis. it's nice to meet all of you

I'm sorry you gotta be feelin that way now but im glad you i dunno howta say it. I think its good you let yourself feel even when the feelin aint great is what i mean. I dont like feelin yuck stuff so i know how hard it is just lettin yourself do that.

Thx for lettin me know its ok to come here. I never did no forum talk before. Well i show up one place and i post two times i think. Lulz. It been my other ones who talk before and i never did. I gotta remind me its ok even tho i know it is. Hearin that helps. Thx. I worry im a pain cuz im not big.

Hi System Atlantis. Yay you got a name for you all to. I forget which one of us start callin us all that but we all like it and decide to use it.

[L.P.]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

thanks for sharing what you all are like, what you all do, here in my location this is called sense of agency. you can read more about this and about my sense of agency and others sense of agency in the link at the bottom of my post.

your post yes sometimes growing up is hard. I know someone who had littles who were afraid because they were growing up but then they realized that their old jobs were not needed any more like one little's job was to just be little sucking their thumb for comfort, but then there was no reason to sit and sick their thumb any more. by growing up they realized they could do more things then just sit and such a thumb, they could color, play and take walks. then they grewup some more and could do things like go shopping, have a pet... the more they grew the more things they got to be able to do. yea growing up is hard but I think you might just like it getting bigger and doing more things. the one that I know loves the growing up stuff now.

I looked at what you said. I like that post lots. I like hearin bout other systems. I was thinkin id write in there later.

Yeah the ones of us who are here now we know old ways aint workin no more and we gotta change how we usta do and figure out what we gotta be doin now. Us here now we already make lots of big steps so thats good now we gotta keep makin steps. We a stubborn bunch so i think we can do it.

I hope i like it cuz it sure is happenin even when i dont want it to. Right now i think being 10ish is better then bein littler. I know howta do more now and i can help more now and i can esier say what im thinkin now to.