[whispers_inthedark]

We have a therapist who has worked with DID before but has stated that she thinks our host has something similar but not that. I'd like to talk to her because I think it would be mutually beneficial but at the same time I can't come out easily and when I do the host is still there, either making me really nervous or smiling this stupid smile that makes me feel like the therapist would think I'm making this up and putting her on.
I'm not, I just want to come out and explain how the host has been doing and talk to her about what she's thinking as far as treatment goes. Does anyone have any suggestions? I've talked to therapists before but they've never known it was me so the host hasn't gotten worried and it's gone seamlessly.

Originally Posted by whispers_inthedark

We have a therapist who has worked with DID before but has stated that she thinks our host has something similar but not that. I'd like to talk to her because I think it would be mutually beneficial but at the same time I can't come out easily and when I do the host is still there, either making me really nervous or smiling this stupid smile that makes me feel like the therapist would think I'm making this up and putting her on.
I'm not, I just want to come out and explain how the host has been doing and talk to her about what she's thinking as far as treatment goes. Does anyone have any suggestions? I've talked to therapists before but they've never known it was me so the host hasn't gotten worried and it's gone seamlessly.

Can you get her email address? Or jot her a note?

[whispers_inthedark]

I think we have her email address, not sure. I did that with the last therapist though and it didn't go well, he didn't seem interested in talking to me at all. Do you think it's still worth talking to her? She seems nice. I just don't want to email her and get my host in trouble, they have enough problems as it is.

[whispers_inthedark]

Thanks, I don't want to get my host in trouble and the last time I tried contacting her therapist he didn't seem ok with it. Maybe this one is different, I don't know. Do you think it's worth a try? I just don't want to get my host in trouble, they have enough problems as it is

[L.P.]

Do you like the t and are you comfortable wiith the t? We had one girl one time and she made a card for the t tellin that t how she wasnt scared to talk to her or nothin but she has hard times just showin up in front. She cant do that she either gonna be there or no. She cant help it so a card worked real good for her. That girl did lots of helpful work with t all through cards. She one time made the best system map ever for that t. It was cool.

Then we got another one who is a protector typpe and shed just show up in t and rat out the one hostin back then. The first time that protector show up in t it took that t lady a min sittin there like whaaaaa? Then the t got to knowin whats up and knew it wasnt the one she was usta talkin to. That protector type tho she could just show up when she wanted to so thats what she did and it worked for her. She didnt get scared or nothin with t so it worked for her. I bet if you do show up to talk then your t will catch on to that its not the other one she been talkin to.

I think its nice and helpful how you wanna work with t. I wish i wasnt scared of ts.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by whispers_inthedark

We have a therapist who has worked with DID before but has stated that she thinks our host has something similar but not that. I'd like to talk to her because I think it would be mutually beneficial but at the same time I can't come out easily and when I do the host is still there, either making me really nervous or smiling this stupid smile that makes me feel like the therapist would think I'm making this up and putting her on.
I'm not, I just want to come out and explain how the host has been doing and talk to her about what she's thinking as far as treatment goes. Does anyone have any suggestions? I've talked to therapists before but they've never known it was me so the host hasn't gotten worried and it's gone seamlessly.

I can understand the hard getting out part of this. short version in order for any of those that lived inside of me to come out I the body born (what you call the host) had to be so uncomfortable\ upset \ triggered which ever word you use, so that I had my dissociation problems (feeling numb, spaced out, disconnected) this dissociating in me is what caused my alters to come out / take control. who came out depended upon what was triggering me to have my dissociation problems and who took care of that problem...

my point if its part of your sense of agency (job, purpose reason why you are there, and all that stuff) to talk about how you and the host are doing it will happen, its just a matter of when....

heres a good tip, you said you were able to do this before (come out and talk with the therapist) my suggestion is look back at that time and see what all the dotted I's and crossed T's were that enabled you to do that before. that will tell you when the right time for you to do it again can happen.

if it turns out that you cant talk with the therapist for some reason maybe there is someone else inside that can do that for you. each persons internal system is comprised how ever and with who ever is needed to take care of and ensure the survival of everyone. my point if its not your sense of agency to talk with the therapist and the last time just turned out to be a lucky fluke maybe who evers job is is to do that can help do this or fix things so that it can happen for you.

[whispers_inthedark]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

I can understand the hard getting out part of this. short version in order for any of those that lived inside of me to come out I the body born (what you call the host) had to be so uncomfortable\ upset \ triggered which ever word you use, so that I had my dissociation problems (feeling numb, spaced out, disconnected) this dissociating in me is what caused my alters to come out / take control. who came out depended upon what was triggering me to have my dissociation problems and who took care of that problem...

my point if its part of your sense of agency (job, purpose reason why you are there, and all that stuff) to talk about how you and the host are doing it will happen, its just a matter of when....

heres a good tip, you said you were able to do this before (come out and talk with the therapist) my suggestion is look back at that time and see what all the dotted I's and crossed T's were that enabled you to do that before. that will tell you when the right time for you to do it again can happen.

if it turns out that you cant talk with the therapist for some reason maybe there is someone else inside that can do that for you. each persons internal system is comprised how ever and with who ever is needed to take care of and ensure the survival of everyone. my point if its not your sense of agency to talk with the therapist and the last time just turned out to be a lucky fluke maybe who evers job is is to do that can help do this or fix things so that it can happen for you.

Last time it was because the host's sickness was so bad and the therapist wasn't helping because the host wouldn't tell him. I had to do something before they ended up at the hospital. I don't want their anxiety to get to that level but it's been so bad that myself and one other protector have been here almost consistently for the last three days. Therapy is on Thursday, if I'm still here I guess I could explain who I am. I worry that she won't believe me, or I'll act too much like the host. Most people can't tell the difference between us and therapists always seem to want to see proof that I'm someone different than the host, and while I am, it's difficult to provide.

[finding_my_way]

writing has always been easier for me. my others don't come out except under random/rare circumstances or when triggered, i guess, but have randomly said something here or there to the psychiatrist when i've been there still. it is strange but interesting.

but i have found writing in general is easier to so things are there and easier to refer to if words can't come out.

for years, i just kept saying i had other parts, but it wasn't until recently that i shared several of them have different names, ages, genders, etc. and weren't 'just' something like ego states or how people in general feel other sides to them yet know it's still them.

it is always worrisome when you share things like that without being able to predict the response...though i think it's better to let the therapist know so they are able to help how it is needed. i would think if they have already worked with people with DID that they are open to it and everything that goes with it, so it might not go how it did with previous ones for that reason alone.

[whispers_inthedark]

thanks therapy is on thursday. maybe I can try writing a letter and give it to her. I'm worried she will ask questions. Maybe I can try writing in a notebook so I can write more if I need to. Is that a strange form of communication though? I do best on forums and chat rooms and struggle with physical communication and social cues sometimes.