[Claritytoo]

I over slept today and now I am afraid to leave the house. I have taken my meds so I know it's not that. This has happened to me for decades. Just the thought of going out side makes me feel like I can't breath. It's pretty bad right now. Sometimes I stay in all day no matter what I had planed. My chest gets tight and my head spins just looking out the window. Usually tell my self that we don't have to go out if we don't want to. But we do need to walk our dog. Sometimes I just put him on the leash and let him out just enough to go to the bathroom. But now we live too close to a busy road and neighbors might try to talk to me. I just met my neighbors and handled it well. I don't want them to think I have any problems. There were days when I would call in sick from work just because I felt like this. I haven't felt this bad sense I moved here. I know it's in my head but I over slept and that gives too much time to let panic creep in. Or maybe I just didn't take my meds earlier enough. I'll consider that and wait and see.

[Claritytoo]

Ok feeling better still can't go outside but believe I should be able to in an hour or two. I put on soccer. That always changes my thoughts. And I started unpacking my stuff. As long as I can get my mind out of my head I can push on. Still a little scary but better than before.

[elevatedsoul]

hope you are feeling better

[finding_my_way]

sorry. i hate to say that i can relate, but i can. i have struggled with this throughout my lifetime too. years ago, it was extremely difficult. i would have to leave the house for appointments though several times a week and always was highly anxious and had panic attacks. i would cancel a lot of things because of it and stopped doing things with people, so they eventually stopped asking me to.

it is very isolating, scary, frustrating, and sad to go through that. it happens every few months for me now compared to almost daily, but even that is extremely difficult to go through. i get scared to see anyone. it used to be worse where i lived last because there were people around a lot who i couldn't avoid. now, i barely see neighbors. i sometimes get scared to even take out the garbage because the thought of someone seeing me is too much to handle. i don't want anyone talking to me, and i feel extremely vulnerable and like they can almost see inside of me or something or sometimes get paranoid with the fear that someone will want to harm me.

i hope that it lessens soon for you.

I suffer from such anxiety right now. Our neighbor had words with an Other, so when we thinking of going outside...we have high anxiety....mostly knowing that it is going to trigger us and no telling what will happen then. Also, the littles are scared. There are a few Others here that we don't want triggered out...we can't afford jail.

Thanks for mentioning meds....I need go take my morning dose. We tend to forget on the weekend.

I hope get to feeling better hon. )

I once couldn't leave my house for almost 2 years.I had to get back out in the world in baby steps.First I walked out to my mailbox,kept doing that until I was ok with it,then stepped out by the road,kept going a little bit further as I could.Eventually I made it to a store,eventually went inside,eventually bought a couple of things,etc.

I had to just keep trying and keep pushing myself until I was finally able to do it.A little bit more each time.

It didn't instantly get better,it took a couple of years of continuously trying.I still sometimes start feeling the old feelings,but I just force myself anyway.I think it's a PTSD thing,it's hard to go out sometimes when I have been triggered.Doing soooo much better with it now though compared to when I couldn't leave the house at all.