[casualdivision]

Hi guys. Just currently in a state that ive been to before but ive dissociated from very quickly. I feel like im starting to fall down a hole and theres nothing/noone in my life that can bring me back or save me right at this moment. I feel like i need something or everything but i cant have what i need. I do have a sense of what I want though but Im finding it hard to put into words. Glad to have this forum to just put something somewhere and hope it stays real and I dont divide myself up into little chunks of consciousness.

Update: I need a rock to hold onto, something thats so real and strong that itll stop me falling. Guess this comes from early childhood and my mother and the person she is. I hope its ok that i put this here

[elevatedsoul]

me too
its ok to put this here
i feel similar too

i want something firm that i can lean on

wish i had a nice girlfriend that would support me, i could cry in front of and she wont judge me, a nice rock that i can lean on, a rock of a person that is solid and reliable...

its so hard dealing with this stuff..... i wish you find you rock too...

[elevatedsoul]

sorry, i blacked out last night

stay strong..

[just2b]

Feeling same. Very distant.

[Crew]

Hey your amazing! and

You got this! we're all here to let you know your no longer alone..see You Got This!,

crew

[whispers_inthedark]

I honestly hate feeling present because I'm so used to the fogginess of dissociation all the time. I'm hardly ever truly completely alert and learned to stay in a high-functioning state while dissociated so now being alert makes me exhausted. Hope you can figure out how to stay present if it's important to you though <3

[casualdivision]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

sorry, i blacked out last night

stay strong..

no problem i was scared to look back at the thread anyway. thnks for replies hope youre good

[casualdivision]

Originally Posted by whispers_inthedark

I honestly hate feeling present because I'm so used to the fogginess of dissociation all the time. I'm hardly ever truly completely alert and learned to stay in a high-functioning state while dissociated so now being alert makes me exhausted. Hope you can figure out how to stay present if it's important to you though <3

i like to be present its the only way i know im real and im living in a way thats meaningful even if its painful. But the more present i get the closer i get to pain and destruction so... its hard isnt it

[casualdivision]

Originally Posted by Crew

Hey your amazing! and

You got this! we're all here to let you know your no longer alone..see You Got This!,

crew

thanks x