This is truly a hard place!!

Congratulations on giving it another trial run. I agree with Luce. The drive will get easier each time.

Is there someone in your system who feels the most confident about venturing to new places? If so, can you ask them to help and ask the scared and frightened one to step back and give them something to feel safe?

It will be okay.

Thank you Luce. I keep telling myself that it will be ok. I keep telling myself that I'll get used to it. That is what I was telling myself yesterday when I made the drive. The closer I got the sicker my tummy felt.

Ruh Roh, I think the part of me that you are asking about, is the part that was making the drive and I lost it on the way. If that makes sense.

Today it just keeps cycling around. One minute I'm fine and it's going to be ok, the next minute I'm silently freaking out and then I'm numb again. This is wearing me out! I'm
sure y'all are sick of hearing it too.

I Have do idea what I'm going to talk with him about tonight. Sure, this would be good to talk about but I'm afraid to. If I'm not brave then the alternative is more than I want to think about dealing with. I don't know what I'll do.

Thank y'all!!

There's nothing like an unbearable alternative to push you through your worst fears!
But seriously, I don't mean to make light of the situation, TR. I know this is causing you an enormous amount of anxiety and stress.
But it will become easier. It really will.
What is the very worst thing you are afraid of? Is it 'getting lost' again? Losing yourself whislt driving and 'coming to' in an unfamiliar place?
If so, what things can you do to set up help for yourself if you find yourself in that situation again? Purchase a map of the area and keep it in the glove box? Write down instructions for how to access google maps on your phone? Have a list of numbers handy to call? Have some grounding tools kept in the car to help you find yourself again? have some grounding tools visible in the car so if you start to dissociate you might be able to use them to calm yourself so you don't 'go away'?
It may ease the anxiety a little if you can trust that if the worst does happen, you will have the tools to get yourself back to where you need to be again.

Thank you!! I've put some thought to it and talked with my counselor about it tonight.

He has said that the counseling center is a bubble of safety in a bad area. You are right in me being concerned that I may have another moment of time lapse while driving. This is not an area that you would want that to happen. It is really bothering me that it could happen and I would be in a very bad place and it not be ok.

It's also on my mind to think of someone I could talk to through my phone on the way there for the first couple of times. I really don't have anyone I can think of.

My youngest would probably be happy to do it. I just don't want to get him anxious because of me. He has enough going on.

It would be cool if I could talk with y'all but can't do that and drive.